Hood Nigga Intentions

Chapter 9-Reflex

.."Get Gina back before you have nothing but drugs,yo homeboys that will most likely switch up on you tellin you these girls arent nothing, and parties" Mrs. William said to me.

Chris and I visited Peanut's grandmom take make sure she was set. We gave her stacks of bread, also went food shopping for her since she was getting at that age where she couldn't do much. She said it was some disease plus bone density. Chris and I knew she was ready to be with Peanut again but she counted her days and smiled with every chance she had.

"Gina seems like a sweet girl you don't want to be with but at the same time, want to because you think she'll hurt you" She said staring into my eyes with deep concern. I know she meant well for me and only wanted the best for me. She was my grandma ,too. Chris snorted quickly trying to cover it up as a cough. Grandma William scrunched her face up,grabbing her walking stick to wack Chris's knee. He whined loud grabbing his knee,jumping up the couch to get away from her.

"Ow! Damn Grandma!"

"Keep taking me for a joke boy"grunting as she got up out her chair. I held my laugh in as a watch Chris guard his legs with his arms from Grandma.

"We gotta go" I said staring at chris, nodding my head towards the door. We stood up at the same time, looking for grandma she was nowhere in sight. "She prolly busy lets bounce nigga" Chris said swiftly as he walked out of the house. I felt like I needed to check up on her before I left.
"Grandma William Im out!" I shouted.

There was no response which made me wanna go look for her.

"Grandma-" I walked into her bedroom seeing her sit on the bed with her back faced the door. I could hear small sniffles coming from her. I knew it was Peanut's death making her break.

"I miss my baby boy Kayden" She whispered softly to herself. As I walked around the bed, a picture of Peanut and Us was in her hands. Tears were sliding off the picture as they dropped from her eyes. Seeing her like this for the first time broke me all over again. "He was full of laughter, of kindness..." she continued. I sat besides her, throwing my arm over her shoulder.

She leaned into me and let it all out. I couldnt help but to sob. We both needed each other. We both loved Peanut.

"Love that girl, Kayden" Grandma cleared her throat so she didnt sound weak anymore. Wiping her tears she sat up and looked at me. I wiped my tears as soon as her eyes landed on me. Grandma grabbed my wrists and said softly "don't be afraid to love, dont be afraid to show your soft side to a person whose willing to be there for you at your worse times. I know Peanut.. my dear boy.. he would want happiness for you instead of loneliness and street hoes."

"Don't be afraid to be yourself" She said breaking into a small smile. I felt a pang of different sadness wave over me. I knew what I had to do. But I didn't know how. Grandma probably read my expression as quick as lightening because she quickly diagnosed my problem with ideas.

I wasn't a romantic type guy. But Gina deserved everything I could muster up in me. Grandma kissed my forehead ,patting my shoulder.

"Go get her.."

I hopped to my feet, out the door. I needed Gina to understand that I messed up and I needed her. Peanut wanted me to create a big happy family with her. Ima do right by him and her.

especially her.

"Nigga what took you so long? taking a shit? taking a shit in grandma bathroom? fucking her toilet up? damag-"