Shawn Mendes Imagines

Running Low || breakup, sad

overview: Shawn's letter talking about your two's relationship, (break-up, letter format)

*based off his song "Running Low" obvi, enjoy*

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Dear (y/n),

The times have not been good to us two lately, it is not fair to you and I understand that. This is something that has been heavily weighing down on me, it is obviously something that I would think about constantly— my inner voices battling out all of the possibilities with the different situations surfacing in my head. It is three am. and today is no different from the others. My mind is running hazy with everything that is happening, I want to fix this, but I can't. All these voices in my head is constantly in a stir.

I know how much of a strain our relationship is in with my constant touring and with your own career flourishing and although I am so fucking ecstatic for your accomplishments, I should also say that it is getting in the way of us desperately trying to link up again. I know how hard it is, you can see it too. Our calls are always cut short, sometimes not even being able to have a call because it would slip my mind or I would fall asleep right after a show because I was too tired or even your long hours in the office— you should not be in the end of all of this. As much as it hurts me to say, well write, you deserve better. You deserve someone fucking better than me because I am not always going to be there for you when I want to be, pains me to realize.

It hurts me just as much as you think (y/n), trust me— I care so deeply with you and I just want you to be happy. Even if I cannot be the person to make you happy. Being the situation that we are currently in— we are both stressed from the long distance and not frequent calls. I know we talked about this whole dilemma before my tour started up, but the expectation was so much different considering it is actually happening now in the moment, than just us saying broken words and promises without knowing the full extent.

You deserve to be happy, just not with me— there will be someone out there for you who can give you the time I could not give to you, I just can not be that guy, no matter how much I want to be.

I am sorry. I am sorry for not being with you when you needed me, not picking up the phone to call you. I am sorry for giving you this shit letter. I promise I will have the guts to face you and talk more fully of our state when I get back from tour— I am not leaving you with just this to probably break your heart, okay? I care about you more than enough to just send you a letter and not hear from me again. I want to see you face-to-face, hold you if you would let me and cry with you, not talk about where we stand in a letter while I am 2000 miles away. I am sorry for running low on our relationship and on you— I had made a promise to never leave you. You give me something real that I know would be hard to find again.

But I also made a promise to keep you happy and I already broke that— I am sorry. I could never live with myself knowing that I am hurting you, hurting this relationship. I would notice the already teared stained faces and puffy eyes you would have when we would have our facetime calls (y/n). Your beautiful broken smile would mask away what you truly are dealing with, but I had known you long enough to see right through the facade. You were breaking about this whole long distance just as much as I was and it has been going on for months already. What is different from the other times than right now is that I have to have something done about this.

Maybe we can both find our way to each other's hearts again in the future, when the times are different compared to now.

I'm running low, I'm sorry but I have to go. I will love you forever.

with love always, Shawn

You did not fail to notice the dried splashed water droplets adoring the bottom half of the page, smudging some of the ink from the presence as you gripped the flimsy paper on your tight hold. Soon, your own splashed water droplets adding onto the lines and words of heartbreak.

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an: guys, this made me sad while writing this.. Like I think it's sad; the thought of it all. :(

MAAAAYBEE I will make a part two— having it be a letter sent to Shawn from (y/n) in response to this, let me know what you think about that!

Please send thoughts my way through comments :-) Sorry if this is short and shit:/

anyways, ty honeys for taking the time to drop by and have a read, means a lot ☀︎