Cold-hearted Princess [instagram au.] ➣ Satzu

[END: Finale]

black dress.

black hair.

black world

black.

everything is so dark. everytime i think about you i always think 'what if you were still here?' i want that question to be real. i want you. here, with me, in my arms. We'd watch some movies together. you really like The Notebook, but we never finished watching because you fell asleep. it was one of our promises, to finish that movie. but i guess i have to finish it alone, like my life. i cant be like this forever. but ill always remember you. no matter what, you'll always be in my mind.

i love you. chou tzuyu.

i dropped my pen and put my hands on my head due to frustration. i crumbled the paper and threw it on the ground along with others. i cant think.... of anything. we had many memories together. positive and negative. why sana? why so early??

i took a deep breath and tried to concentrate. but nothing came out of my head. since we all flew to Osaka, im kind of having a jetlag right now. i cant give up right now.

i got dressed casually and left my apartment. i took a walk around in Osaka, checking out my girlfriends home city. children playing, couples walking hand in hand. "oh yeah... its February..." i put my hands into my pockets and wandered around the unfamiliar city.

as the sun was setting down, i decided to go back. alone. as i walked through the people, yelling, laughing, crying. i felt that i wasn't the only person this desperate.

i entered my room and sat back to my desk and started to write. everything i wanted to say. to show. to prove. just to you Sana. only you. now, ill show it to everyone.

______________________________

today is the day. our official goodbye. we may not see each other, but i hope you'll be here wherever i need u. you'd watch over me. you would right? i know you would... you promised.

"tzuyu? its time..." nayeon was standing there, in a blackdress with a white lily on her chest. i sighed and got my stuff and went downstairs where everyone was waiting for me. i know im not the only person who is miserable. i shouldn't be thinking just about me.... i should thinking about us all. as friends...

as family

"tzuyu?" Chaeyoung patted my left shoulder to show we were leaving and i just simply nodded with a sad frown. as i leave, Mina stayed looking around "i never knew... i had to go through this. i knew i would someday. but not this early..." she clenched her fists, putting all her emotions away as she sighed loudly "i miss her." she left the room with no word. I followed her and entered the car.

the ride was quiet. really quiet. nobody talked, its... disturbing. i looked around and everyone was on their phone except for Nayeon who is riding the car.
after 30min ride we finally arrived.

her parents were standing there, crying hugging every person who wishes them the best. i dont know if i should talk to them since i don't know any Japanese. Momo approached me and whispered something in my ear. i nodded and walked over to Sana's parents.

i hold her mothers hands "心からお悔やみ申し上げます" she looked sadder and hugged me as she said "i know you're sana's girlfriend, thank you for making my little girl the happiest one" i nodded as i hugged her father too. we talked about me and then we proceeded to enter.

i held her mother hand so she doesn't feel alone. all this time i thought i would've been the most broken one, but her mother is more hurt than me. her eyes are so red of crying, her hands are trembling because of the anxiety, her breathing is really fast because of this. i held her hand tightly.
"We are gathered here to say farewell to Sana and to commit her into the hands of God" her spreads his arms a little but open

"Lord our God, you are the source of life. In you we live and move and have our being. keep us in life and death in your love, and, by you grace, lead us to your kingdom, Through your Son, Jesus Christ, our Lord."

"In the Name of God, the merciful Father, we commit the body of Sana to the peace of the grave." The priest lets three hand-fulls of earth fall onto the coffin "From dust you came, to dust you shall return. Jesus Christ, is the resurrection and the life."

"Lord God, our Father in heaven, Lord God, the Son, and Saviour of the world, Lord God, the Holy Spirit, have mercy on us. At the moment of death, and on the last day, save us, merciful and gracious Lord God." everyone bid sana goodbye and again give their Condolences to the parents of Sana

"amen"

"amen" everyone said in unison. Sana's mother started crying on my chest so i hugged and stroke her back slowly, comforting her. as hours passed by...

her funeral was officially over. i couldn't help, but visit her one last time. one. last. time. i walked over to her tomb and sat down. i stared at the tomb for a few minutes, as tears started streaming down my cheek. "i love you baby..." i heard foot steps coming closer and closer "we love her too" mina said in a low tone. i turned around and everyone was standing there. they all sat around her tomb and kept silent since then. "weird right?" momo plucked some grass out. "lets say goodbye..." everyone nodded and stood up.

"minatozaki sana...

farewell"

[The End]