sometimes I feel like I should fix every mistake in my life.
I should go out more often and listen to more music that makes me happy.
I should go to the beach more often and fall in love more often and wait until the sky catches up with my mood.
I feel like I should have a strong interest in science and the color blue.
I feel like I should sit in the bath more often in water that is not hot not cold.
I should do more things alone.
I should be willing to go out more and be quicker to do reckless things.
I have lived probably half of my life and I only have a handful of memories.
I do not wish to live to be old. maybe I will in six years but as of now, my mind is made up.
I often wonder if my eyes are dull and emotionless or sparkling and full of wonder.
I wonder if I am a firework or just an old tool shed that continues to store things inside of it.
am I both in demand?
or do I need to inject myself with something.
it's okay though.
I am very confused and someday I will figure it out.
