Please Don't Forget Me ~Gaara~

Chapter 20

So things got weird, oh well! It's not like anyone was seriously injured. Okay, so, yes the old man died and... Your Dad kind of went MIA, but come on! It wasn't that bad! ...Was it?

(Opening theme: Fake or Fate)

I could hear the wind rushing past my head as I continued my fall to the ground below. Every thought was litterally, 'Oh crap, Oh shit, Oh fuck, Oh Jeeze, Oh tits!' But when I finally hit something solid, It wasn't hard, and I wasn't dead. Upon further inspection, I found that Sasuke had caught me and stopped my fall to death.

"Sasuke! Shit man, I never thought I'd be happy to see you!" My arms wrapped around him breifly before turnning back and standing on the tree limb that we were so precariously perched. Why do ninja's always have to be in Fricking trees?! This is bullshit! My eyes went up to see Gaara, who, nowseeing me (somewhat) safe, decided it was better to turn back to Naruto. Well fine, guess I see where I stand then.

But something weird happened... My head... it really bgan to hurt, like I mean bad. It was just this splitting headach that was bad enough that I was kneeling, my hands on it trying to hold it together. My vision began to fade into a different picture. Instead of the forest fight scene, it was white, with a vision of a girl who looked just like me, floating, curled up, naked, asleep. Chinsei was fighting my controle, and starting to win. But I had to keep it together. No way in hell was I letting this kid win against me.

She began to uncurl, slowly lowering her feet to the ground and lefting her head. I watched in dismay as her eyes opened, sleepily at first, but then brighter and more awake. I stepped back when she tried to step closer.

"Give me back my body." Chinsei said calmly.

"Hell no."

"Give it back, Esendo."

"No! Don't you understand how wonderful it feels to finally be free after so long of your oppresion?! I deserve some life!"

"But you were never meant to exist." That one sentance stung my heart. I know that. I've known it. But to hear it so plainly stated...

"They why did you make me?! Was it just so that you would have someone to torture?! I'm alive Chinsei! Whether you like it or not!" I lunged, knocking her to the ground and manifesting a knife. Her eyes betrayed nothing but the physical struggle she had trying to keep the blade away from her. But I was just as strong, if not stronger, than her.

The blade cut into the grownd when she turnned her head. That gave her the perfect opportunity to kick me away and run off. With the knife in my hand, I went after her, determined to once and for all get rid of her and take her life for my own. I deserve to live. I deserve to have a body of my own. I deserve to make some dessisions. I deserve to love.

Chinsei hit the ground and I tripped over her, loosing the knife, which she ran for and swooped up effortlessly. I grasped her wrists and we struggled for awhile, the determination in her eyes, I'm sure, matching my own. She wanted me dead and I wasn't going to die before my life had begun. Just as I was beginning to be able to push her hands back and take back the knife, Sasuke's voice rang in my head. Damn it boy, not now! I'm a little busy.

But outside of the internal struggle, Sasuke was a little concerned for my well being as I sat on the branch, my hands on my head and my face contorted with pain. Up above, as he continued to fight with Naruto, Gaara looked down with intesnse worry. But I couldn't focus on them now. Chinsei was my top priorety as she freed one of her hands and hit the side of my head with great force.

I hit the ground and screamed as the knife came down and plunged deep into my chest. She pulled it out and brought it down again and again and again. Tear fell down her face and she stabbed me over and over, my blood, her blood, coating her hands and face. I could no longer feel the pain of the blade as it slid into my skin, could no longer hear her despret pleas for forgivness. My vision was starting to fade as I looked up at her, my arms still now. She sobbed and wept over me. But I couldn't tell the cause of her tears. Was she upset because I was dieing? Or because she was afraid?

We had been together for a long time. Almost as long as her and Gaara had been together. So now that she was breaking ties with me, she didn't know just what would happen to her. And she also didn't know how this sudden change would affect her. And slowly, as I began to absorb back into her, I could finally understand her, I could finally understand her need for making me, her need for someone to switch with her, and her want to keep me hidden away for so long.

At the very end I understood everything. And I reached my fading hand up and very gently touched her face, a smile appearing, before altimatly disappearing into the air around her. Being part of her again wasn't to bad. I could feel her life, I could experiance it, without having to steal it from her. I wasn't gone, I was alive. I was alive inside of her.

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Someones hands held me tightly in place, and when I opened my eyes, I could see why I would need them. I was teatering on the very edge of a tree branch, about to fall. "Damn it! are you related to Naruto or something?!" Sasuke said behind me.

"Sorry..." I said, finding my sturdy place again. Down below, Temari and Kankuro were helpping Gaara, back to his old self, to his feet. He looked up at both of them and... apologized? He's being good! The system works! After so long of trying to get him to see the better of life and be kinder to not only me, but everyone else, it seems he finally got the full extent of the plea knocked into him by a blonde idiot of a ninja.

When Gaara looked up at me, I could see the hurt and the want in his eyes, and only wanted to run down there and hug him. Hung him so tight that he would never forget that there is someone here who loves him dearly. Hug him so tight that he knows he is never alone. A trendle of sand made it's way up to me and I grabbed on, letting it slowly lower me to the ground. Gaara's eyes lowered as he looked at me.

"Chinsei, I'm sorry. Not just for hurting you, but also for everything I've done to you over the years. And especially for the past three days."

"Gaara, it's okay. I don't hold anything against you." I moved forward and took the hand that wasn't drapped over Temari's shoulders in mine and pressed it to my collarbone. "I for one think it was about time we both faced our demons head-on, don't you agree?"

He nodded and looked past me where Naruto, Sasuke, and a newly consious Sakura stood. And that's when I realized my fight with the inner Esendo took the better half of an hour. But I made my way over to the three and hugged each one, yes, including Sasuke. They did something amazing today for my Gaara. They opened his eyes. Though, Naruto was more the one who, literally, beat the sense into him. I thanked each of them and turnned back to my injured friend.

Taking his hand in mine, I smiled. "Lets go home." He nodded and said one simple line. A line that in all honesty I had given up all hope of ever hearing. But yet the moment I heard it, I stopped and cried. I cried so hard and long and only had Gaara to hold onto as I thanked him. I thanked him and he held me so close and tenderly my heart wanted to burst from my chest. Just one line.

"I believe you."

Our world was whole again. And after everything, I knew that somehow, in some way, we would make it work. Because what we had wasn't just love, it was a whole life together.

(Ending theme: My true self)

Oh yes my beautiful readers, this is the last chapter for this book, but fear not! For a second book in Gaara and Chinsei's twisted love story is on the way! Be on the look out for Can't I Even Dream! I love you all!