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She felt numb all over, her body was shaking and she didnt know what to do. He'd left he'd actually left. With that thought she ran to the toilet and threw up. She slid down the wall her head in her arms wondering why it always had to be her, why everytime she found happiness it had to be ripped away from her. Most of all she was angry, angry at robin, angry at marian and angry at the world.

It was the day after robin left and regina had spent the whole day curled up in a ball on her bed leaving her spot to go throw up occasionally. She had sent henry away to stay at emmas because she didnt want him to see her like this. Broken and hurt. It was around dinnertime but she didnt feel like eating, she hadnt eaten all day and didnt plan on eating dinner. She had wondered why she had been throwing up but she had more pressing matters on her mind at that moment. Her head was like a minefield just waiting to explode it was full of memories and happy times like when everytime she saw his smile she lit up and everything in the world would become right again. She couldnt help reliving that day the day when he chose to leave. He chose marian over her. She guessed he really hadnt loved her after all. She eventually fell asleep drowning in her own thoughts and having a nightmare filled sleep.

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She woke up the next morning looking extremely dishevelled. She decided that she had to do something to keep her occupied and back on her feet. She needed something to keep her away from the thoughts and memories already starting to swirling in her head.

40 minutes later she was dressed and had tried to make herself look presentable. Although no matter how much make up she used you could still see the red rings around her eyes and the huge suitcases under her eyes. When she got to her office she noticed a lot of people muttering nd murmuring to one another as she walked past. She just kept walking determined to reach her office as soon as possible before someone tried to talk to her. As soon as she reached her office she locked the door behind her and took a seat at her desk. She pulled out a bundle of paperwork and slowly  she worked through it all trying to keep her thoughts at bay.

It was around 9:30 when she started to feel the sudden urge to throw up. She bolted down the hall to the bathroom and threw up over and over again. By the time she was finished she had a pounding headache. She stood up and tydied herself up, walked out of the bathroom and swiftly walked to her office. Once she got there she dug through her bag and pulled out a bottle that said headache tablets:will fix the worst of any headache. Only take with food unless advised by a doctor. She decided she may as well go to granny's she was going to have to eat eventually so she may as well go now. She packed up her stuff and slung her handbag over her shoulder. She also grabbed her phone and checked her notifications. she had 12 missed calls from henry and 9 each from zelena (btw shes good in this one and isnt actually marian shes just reginas sister), tink, belle and snow. She also had 3 missed calls from emma and one missed call from.....

robin. Regina was filled with rage and hurt How dare he, how dare he call her after leaving her. Tears were streaming down her cheeks and she had slid back agaimst the wall with nothing but hurt and sadness. She just wanted to punch something or take her anger out on something.

She slowly picked herself up off the floor and grabbed her phone flicking away the notifications, drying her eyes and walked to granny's.

"1 mango smoothie and a chicken salad please" regina ordered. She had gotten a few sympathetic looks when she walked in and she was just tired of it. In fact she was so tired she actually just wanted to curl up in a ball and fall asleep. She went and took her place in a booth right at the back away from all the watching and sympathetic eyes.

As soon as she sat down she felt a sickening feeling in her stomach and she raced to the toilet and threw up. After she had eaten her lunch she decided to go off work early. When she had got home she wrote a message to emma, and snow saying that she was alright and then she rang tink and told her that she was fine because she knew tink would need a verbal message. Then she rang zelena who she tried to reassure and tell her that there was nothing wrong but instead she got zelena telling her that she was going to move in. Knowing that there was going to be no arguing with her they agreed that she would move in in two days.  Then she called belle. They had become really close friends recently and so she assured her that she was alright and then they talked about the baby. Belle was one month along pregnant and absolutely ecstatic. only will and regina knew. They agreed to meet up for lunch the next day for a chat.

Regina wasnt sure that she could deal with having to go to sleep lying in an empty bed with her thoughts surrounding her suffocating her.

She woke up the next morning and looked at her phone checking the time and date.
CRAP she was supposed to have had her period 3 days ago!!!
And then it all started adding up the vomiting, the nausea, the tired drowsiness, and her period being late. Oh no, no, no, no, no.