Today was a shit day. I met my birthfather today. He is nothing like I had imagined him. He is short and a big long nose and he talks like a black man. Its not something a little girl wants to look up to. He kept lookimg at my body and now I can tell why. As I look in this mirror I see all the things wrong that he saw of me. Im fat, my glasses are too big for my face, and I have a weird voice. But all I wanted was for him to like me, now I'm crying and this page is barely readable. I just want to die. And I had created a new diet for myself because of today. Its called a no food diet.
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A/N So yea even now, I'm 17 and I still hat that man for what he had done to me. From that day until about the beginning of the next school year (September) I had barely eaten anthything and I went from 140 lbs to about 85. Almost half my weight had been lost and I don't really write about it in my journal (mainly cause I wasn't allowed to have a pen here) but I had gone to a home for anorexic and sucidal teenage girls. There was more there than you would think. But it was scary and I only gained 3 lbs there in a matter of 3 months then I went home. So yea my aquantancing with my father wasn't all that great. People constantly keep calling me skinny. It's not a compliment you know. And I don't stop eating now and I'm still onluy 102 lbs. Oops
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Teen FictionBASED ON A TRUE STORY (its my life shhhhh) Dear Diary, Hi. I am six. Today is my birthday. My mom bought me this book. She said it'd be good to write my feelings in it. Whatever that means. I hate my brother. Today he cut all the hair off my barbie...
