Even Seasons Change

Epilogue

Epilogue

Three years... Three years have passed and my feelings still haven't changed at all, not even a little bit. I still love her so much, much more than I love myself. Every minute, every second past my longing for her grows. Every day, every hour, I miss her and wish that time would go back, to correct my wrongs. 

Every time I woke, I always feel the pain, the pain of losing someone. It's like I'm useless, no more use in this world, worthless, nothing to do but look in the past and regret. Regret for what I have done. Since then, my life has changed, everything itself changed. At night, I cry myself in bed, until I fall asleep. I'm willing to trade anything just to be with her once again.

"Huy! Lutang ka na naman..."

".............."

"Bilib din ako sa'yo eh, sa tatlong taong nakalipas hindi mo pa rin siya nakakalimutan."

Paano ko malilimutan? Kung sa lahat ng bagay, siya ang naaalala ko? Kung sa lahat ng pagkakataon siya ang naisip ko? Kung sa bawat oras, siya ang hinahanap hanap ng puso ko? Kahit sino pang diyosa ang mapunta sa harapan ko, gaano man kabait, kaganda, walang makakahigit kay Kim. 

August 15, 2012... This marks our 4th anniversary but sadly, we're not together anymore. Instead of me with her celebrating this day, I'm here all alone drinking, reminiscing all those we have done together, those laughs, those treasured moments Just thinking of it, makes me weak. I stopped drinking went to the place where I first met her, where I first experienced the so-called love. I don't know but it's like something is pulling me in this place, in this clubhouse.. Birthday party? 'Happy 2nd Birthday Kristelle', as I read the tarpaulin. I feel different, it's like there's something in this party. I look at the people's faces, I don't recognize them, I'm sure they're not from around here.

Am I? Am I hallucinating? Kim, is that you? Is that really you? I rushed to her, and grabbed her arm...

"Kim!"

She turned around and smiled at me...

"Excuse me, do I know you? Paano mo nalaman ang pangalan ko?"

"Hahaha! Kim wag ka ngang magbiro ng ganyan! Hahahaha! Sa wakas nahanap din kita, Kim, tatlong taon akong naghintay sa'yo... Tatlong taon..."

My tears are going down again, maybe these are tears of joy...

"Seriously, I don't know you... I'm sorry..."

"Ha? Hindi mo ba naalala? Hindi mo ba ako talaga ako nakilala? Kung paano kita pinasaya? Kung paano ako nanligaw sa'yo noon, at noong sinagot mo ako? Kung gaano tayo kasaya?"

"Sorry... Pero hindi talaga..."

"Mommy...? I want to play..."

I felt like I'm dying inside when I heard that. A girl holds her hand, is she Kristelle? And why is she holding her hand? Who is she? Please don't tell me its....

"Oh okay Baby."

 "Please excuse me, I need to go, my daughter needs me."

 No... This can't be true... This is just a nightmare... This is not happening... She left me here standing alone... I wanted to chase her but I can't move, it's like my feet is glued to the floor. I wanted to shout her name, call her attention, but no words are coming out from my mouth. 

She's gone, and this time it's for real. I can't believe it, but I have to accept the fact. She has now a daughter, and a family so there's no point for me to chase after her. I have no rights to interfere, I don't want to mess her perfect life now. The girl that I've given my life to, the girl that I would like to spend my life with, the girl that I loved so much is now the girl that from now on I can't have. I never knew that our story would end up like this, I was expecting a happy ending for us from the start. I imagined my life with her, raising our own family, our happy family. Maybe those things will stay as a fantasy, a dream that will never become a reality. Goodbye Kim. Farewell. Keep in mind that I will always love you, forever you'll be my heart. And you'll always be my first love. Iloveyou.

THE END. </3

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