Ghosting

3:35 am

It wasn't the first time he had done this, he already did this all summer. It shouldn't be too difficult to do it this school year. This was his only way to ease the pain of her memories, their memories to be exact.

"My life is useless. A dilapidated thing."

He cursed and then closed his eyes for a while, the memory of her rejection coming fresh to his mind. He took time trying to process what she said to him again. Yet his troubled mind couldn't produce the conclusion he was looking for.

"Why did she do that, where did i go wrong."

This must be the millionth time that he blamed himself for that day. It was the day that he knew he would never forget for the rest of his life in that cursed school.

"Where the fuck did i go wrong with this. Did i get off too strong? Did i fuck everything up?"

He just tried to bury it in his beaten up brain. Bruised so much by overthinking about what happened. He tried erasing the suicidal thoughts by watching hentai. It was the only thing he knows that would make him forget, even if it its just a little bit.

"I want a closure."
He whispered while quietly watching the cartoons that would never give him the answers to why she rejected him.