THE BABY BRIDE

3_THE CRUSH

Ummahanie ~

As the cool fresh zephyr find their way into my room. The most irritating sound I have ever heard woke me up from my tranquil sleep, My alarm.

I stretched my body like a kitten and sat up, I caught my reflection in the full length mirror directly opposite my bed. My long dark black shiny hair looks like a bird nest.

I gently got out of the bed and headed to the bathroom, I brushed my teeth and performed ablution. I wore my hijab and performed two units of nafeel and then I prayed subhi prayer.

Bowing in my sujood, I prayed for my my lovely brother to have peace and tranquility in his grave and may jannatul firdausy be his final abode.
I prayed for his soul, my family and the whole of the Muslim Ummah.

It has been a year after my one and only brother's death but I find it very difficult to get acquainted with it and every night I got to bed his memories hunted me which made to cry. I miss him so much but all I can do is to have faith and accept the qadr.

As its said in the Holy Quran
Kulli nafsin za'ikatul maut, every soul must test the death. Gradually I'm getting used to his absence.

I can clearly recalled our last conversation with him when he took me back to college hostel.
"kk Lil Angel take care of yourself for me, study hard, I want you to be our proud star, I want to be proud of you and shout to the whole world that my sister is a great physicist even better than Newton. Don't keep bad company, you see all those guys that will be rushing to you telling you they love you are liars, cheats and jackasses. I know my sister is a slay queen but wait for the right time, the right guy will show up" he advised me heartily with so much care which made me to shed tears.

He gently used his thumb and wiped away the hot tears rolling down and cupped my face making me to faced him.
"I know you can make it Lil angle, I have a strong believe in you" he said with a cool smile. His trying hard not to crying but his voice and eyes are giving him out.
"thank you twin, it will surely miss you" I cried out hugging him tight and he hugged me back.
"I will surely miss you too Lil Angel "he whispered out. He used his own  magic and consoled me, when I finally gave up crying, we bid each other good bye and he promised to be visiting me every week before he finally left.

Since then we never get to see again nor talk to each other. He died the following week on his way to fulfilled a promise he made to me for visiting. His death was so traumatic for me, I lost myself, my glowing world turned into a deserted dark hole.
But Alhamdulillah now I found myself praying for his innocent soul every passing day instead of shedding tears.

I recited the Holy book and some azkar before I jumped into my bed. I really love holidays, it's been a week since our break started, so I usually went back to bed after morning prayers and have a peaceful sleep for some hours, then I will wake up took a shower, have my breakfast, watch movies, help with lunch, go online, read some novels and before you know it is another bed time, that has been my daily routine.

After I'm done with my daily routine, I went online checking my whatsup updates.

hi
a message from Muhammad popped in.

hy ~hanie

howdy ~MK

Fyn n u ~hanie

same ~MK

so whats up ~hanie

Cloud and blue sky ~MK,
I silently chuckled as I typed a reply.

you never stop being silly BB  ~hanie

well I'm always serious here at work ~MK