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(Y/n) p.o.v
"Woah (Y/n)! Where did you get all this food?" Marlon said with a smile on his face as Brody stood behind him, "Back at the old train station it had food ... we talked to someone who wanted some food too," Louis spoke for me while I just smiled and looked at him with half-lined eyes.
"Back at the old train station ...?! That's outside the safe zone! And they saw someone!! Marlon you know what this means!!" Brody cried as we all stood there confused, "ENOUGH... It just means there was a hungry guy out there looking for food, it's happened before Brody," Marlon growled, Brody's eyes widened, "No Marlon... Y-You can't be serious!" Brody cried once again.
Marlon grabbed her arm, "we'll have a talk about this-"
She had pushed him so hard he fell onto the ground, "Ouch?" Marlon rubbed his head, but sighed, got up and left.
"Brody acted like this before (Y/n), please don't think it's your fault," Louis frowned as he hugged me, "no no Louis, I don't let pain take over unless I knew it was my fault," I smile softly.
I heard a different girls voice from behind me, I turned around and saw Clementine talking with Violet, my eyes widened.
'no no... it can't be her...'
I backed away in fear, "who's that?" AJ asked, Clementine turned around and looked at me and AJ,
"AJ!" she ran up to him, "so this is where you were!!" AJ stared at her confused, Louis stood there too. She then glared at me, she punched me in the stomach and kicked me.
I fell back into the ground coughing, "YOU BITCH BECAUSE OF YOU AJ DOESNT REMEMBER ME!"
Louis grabbed her, "OI STOP IT! (Y/n) are you okay!?" Louis leaned down to me as he pet my head, my vision was faint. I could only hear voices and see a slow-moving picture of reality.
I closed my eyes and faced down into the dirt, then I heard AJ, "No! Don't take me away from (Y/n)!" he cried.
I looked up, with my faint vision I had saw Clementine holding AJ's hand while walking away, "AJ ...! No please...!!" warm tears drip down my cheeks, "I can't be alone!! AJ!!! AJ PLEASE!!"
Louis ran after Clementine to get AJ, I slowly faint.
Darkness once again, surrounds me...
I soon wake up in my room, AJ no where to be seen, I began crying, "AJ ... AJ no... no AJ..." I hugged a pillow crying, wishing for AJ to come back to me.
I was all alone.
Again.
I felt so weak, my eyes in pain from all the tears and I couldn't feel anything. I was paralyzed in a position, hugging my pillow crying.
I looked at a razor that was on my desk to protect myself, I grab it and instead...
((This next scene it contains self-harm and bad depression. Don't read until another note If you wish))
I hurt myself, slicing across my wrist. Cutting my skin open to expose the flesh inside, blood drips down from my wrist as I cut more.
Every cut deeper then the other.
The pain wasn't horrible, I've felt worse. It was just like someone pinching me over and over again as I leave marks.
This is the stage I didn't want to be at. AJ stopped me from this, but now being surrounded by no ones happiness hurts me.
((self harm over at this stage))
"(Y/n)..." I heard a familiar voice as a knock was upon my door.
I didn't speak. I only hid the razor and rolled my sleeve down. Blood stains my shirt as I open the door, Louis stood there while a sad expression formed on his face.
"Your awake... i... I'm sorry for AJ... I tried and did what I could... She ran away with him... I'm so sorry..." Louis tried to hug me but I pushed him off, "please don't Lou..." "..." he looked at my arm and gently grabbed it, "(Y/n) what did you do?!" he rolls my sleeve up and looks at my arm with tears in his eyes as they fall down his cheeks.
"FOR GOD'S SAKE (Y/N) WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS OVER A THING THAT CAN BE REPAIRED?! ARE YOU STUPID!!" Louis shouted. I could tell he didn't mean it... but I was so depressed I couldn't take it. I shut the door in his face and layed back down onto my bed, tears still streaming down my cheeks.
"(Y/n) please... Open the door... I didn't mean it... I just... Didn't expect for you to hurt yourself... I feel worthless not being able to help you... As a boyfriend I'm meant to be here for you... To protect you and make you happy. But I can't even do that... I promise you (Y/n)... No matter what happens... We will find that kid and bring him back to you... Please just don't hurt yourself again... If your hurt..." he paused, "it hurts me as much as it hurts you. I love you (Y/n)... I can't stand to know your in pain..." Louis cried.
I listened carefully, but didn't open The door. I needed some time alone, soon I heard footsteps leading away from my room. Meaning he had left. I looked out the window and looked down at everyone else. They were eating the food that I got.
Louis didn't touch it, he kept looking down as people talked.
He looked so sad, everyone began to question Louis about what's wrong. Louis seemed to get angry at that, he screamed, "LEAVE ME ALONE WILL YOU?!!?" and ran away.
Back to his room I suppose... I felt bad for Louis. Knowing its my fault he's sad, guilt swells up inside me as I watch The now shocked group.
"I'm so fucking stupid..." I sighed as I got up. Ready to speak to Louis...
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