~When We Were Younger~

~Sexy and Sixteen~

Okay guys so... I felt really emotional ending ~You Could Save Me Too~ and I wanted it finished before I go back to school I still have 7 days left so here's what I decided to do for you! Happy Birthday @KatieInACloud she's my best friend, I sugggest you all give her birthday love and fan her even if it is a bit late! Don't judge me for the lyrics at the start, I really like this song at the minute blame Jemma and when I watched it on the reading highlights it was amazing- also its fitting.  Also everyone neeeeeds to check out @LouiseQueen 's first story, Through Death I Will Find You, its fab. Love ya millions Meggy xx

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Say my name and every colour illuminates,we are shining and we'll never be afraid again.

What if he doesn’t recognise me? What if we don’t get on as well as we used to? What if he isn’t a nice person anymore? The thoughts whirr in my head without my permission, I’m over thinking this but I can’t help it. I tried to focus on the music playing through my headphones but I couldn’t stop my mind from wandering to him. We used to have the kind of friendship most people can only dream but that was when we were eleven, things have changed since then. His parents had a messy divorce meaning a huge custody battle over their son, why hadn’t they been able to share? His mum had won full custody meaning he had to move to sunny California and his dad could only visit him a few times a year. I lost my best friend. I remember the day I found out he was leaving as if it was yesterday, I had been a wreck:

***Flashback***

“I have something I need to tell you,” he announced nervously standing in my doorway. I could tell by the look on his face that something very bad had happened because even in the worst situations he still managed a smile, right now he was on the verge of tears. "What?" I whispered preparing myself for the worst, if only I knew what that was, it couldn't be that bad if he was here. "Mum won full custody, we're going to live in America with her new family. Dad can only visit a in the holidays, I have an hour," He explained tears streaming from his eyes now. No he cannot leave me but I knew there was nothing I could do to change his fate now the courts had made their decision. "An hour" I said my voice breaking, I rushed over and wrapped my arms around him. "Yeah, I begged and begged them to let me see you... They gave me an hour, I fly tonight," he cried into my arms, I realised I was crying violently now too. I had no idea what to say to that, I knew I couldn't say anything that would change it. He couldn't leave me now, we were about to start secondary school and I wasn't sure if I could do it without him. We sat in each others arms without saying anything and before I knew it fifty minutes had passed quickly.

I was shaking uncontrollably but I had to be stronger, "You need to listen to me okay? Going to live in America is an amazing experience and I know it'll be hard leaving everything behind but you've gotta promise me you'll make the most of this chance," I said forcing my voice not to break. "But I'm leaving you behind, you're my best friend," he told me failing to keep his voice from breaking. The sound just made me want to never let him go. "Look, you're my best friend too and I love you, you're just gonna have to forget me," I said not looking him in the eye, I knew I'd never forget him even if I had amnesia. "I can't forget you, if you think I can then you don't know me as well as I thought," he frowned shaking his head causing his tears to fly everywhere.

"No but it'll be easier if you try, I know you better than anyone and that's why I know whats best for you. We're never going to see each other so the less you care the less you'll be hurt," I said into his chest all of his rage was gone, it was replaced by his thin arms around my waist. "Time's up kiddo," a voice I did not recognise shouted from the hall. "I love you," he whispered though he only meant as a friend. "I love you too," I replied as he kissed my cheek. "C'mon we're leaving, don't make them regret giving you an hour," The voice boomed as its bearer stormed into my room. He stayed clutched to me as we both sobbed, this was it. The guy started to pull him away from me as my dad came into the room, he looked irate. "Don't hurt him," my dad shouted at the strange guy. That was it my best friend was pulled from me, the look on his face hurt me so much. I placed my hand on my heart, a gesture we always did when we said goodbye, he copied my action before he was pulled from my view. The sound of him calling my name filled my ears as I felt to the floor my tears flowing relentlessly.