My boyfriends brother *under edit* // Nash Grier // Hayes Grier

chapter 4

*Nash p.o.v*

~flashback~

"Nash...I...I don't know how to say this lightly........I don't think we can be together anymore....I-I'm in love with someone else....I'm sorry Nash.

And that's when my world ended.Right there.I couldn't move,my heart sank to the lowest level possible.

I watched as she walked out of my room.Everything I have ever loved just told me she didn't love me back,worst of all she left me for my brother,who is 2 years younger than her.

~end of flashback~

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody?you don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy.but at the same time you don't know exactly whats wrong either.there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand.if you could want anything in the world it would to be alone.but you hope this feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again but until then all you can do is wait? ya me to.

My biggest fear is coming to reality.why do I always push everything I love away from me?why am I such a freak.now I'm a freak and an abuser.I don't know what came over me.I hit the one person in my life that hasn't left me.The one person who made me feel again .I love her so much. why is this happening to me?

That's when it hits me.like a big ass brick.all the things I was feeling went numb.Its happening...again. I lift up my sleeve to reveal my broken past.

the faded scars are getting more and more noticeable every time I look at them. I can't take this anymore.Its eating me inside.

ugly

terrible

abuser

sick

not good enough

unlovable.

one-two-three cry. four-five-six I wanna die.there is blood all over the bathroom floor.what have I done?

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