I Am Not Her

Chapter 5

He is so weird.

Hindi na ako nakapagtanong after that question because I was caught off guard by his reaction.

Wala ba syang puso or hindi lang nya talaga minahal si Nicasha? I have only one chance to ask him everything na-blangko pa ako.

I sighed while walking on the way to school. Ano pa nga bang gusto kong itanong? Kung tutuusin wala na dapat akong pakealam but Theo still answered my questions.

I should stop thinking about it. Ano naman kung iwasan ako ng mga students dito. Somehow sanay na ako. Tama si Liah, napakababaw nilang lahat.

Pero natapos ang first class ko na lutang ang isip ko. Parang ang dami ko pa ring iniisip. Parang gusto kong malaman ang story nila Theo at Nicasha.
When the bell rang tumayo agad ako. I still have 30 minutes before magstart ang second subject ko, dadaan muna ako sa restroom.

I took my bag and was about to head out when someone bumped me on the back.

"Sorry." It was Theo.

"Ah, i-its okay."

We stared at each other for a moment, pero sya ang unang umiwas ng tingin and lumabas ng room.

Well that was awkward. I was about to go out but then I noticed all of our classmates were staring at us. As if nag-paused din sila when they saw us talking. That was just a small bump and a simple sorry, whats the big deal?

"Milly lets go." Lumapit sakin si Liah and grabbed my arm para lumabas.

Pero bago pa kami nakalabas I caught a group of girls na iba tingin sakin. Hindi yung tingin na curious, masama ang tingin nila sakin. Kilala ko sila, mga IT girls sila ng University. They are part of the cheering squad. Anong problema nila?

"Wag mo nalang silang pansinin." Liah said while we're walking at the hallway.

I sighed. "Mauna ka na muna Liah, dadaan muna ako sa CR."

"Okay ka lang ba? Sasamahan na kita."

"No its okay. Okay lang ako." I said.

"Okay, magkita nalang tayo sa room."

I headed to the restroom. I was still preoccupied. Sobrang curious pa din talaga ako. Mababaw lang ba talaga mga students dito or baka naman may nangyari kay Nicasha bago sya namatay?

"What's wrong with him!"

Palabas na sana ako ng cubicle when I heard a group of girls na pumasok sa loob ng restroom.

"Almost one year nang patay yung pokpok na yun bakit hindi pa rin maka-moved on si Theo sakanya?!"

I frozed. They were talking about Theo. Hindi agad ako lumabas. For some reason I need to hear this.

"Relax Vanesa, give him more time. Mapapansin ka din nya."

So it was Vanesa, the cheer leader. Sila yung tatlong babaeng ang sama ng tingin sakin kanina bago ako lumabas ng room.

"Sharise, I gave him more than enough time but until now parang wala pa rin syang idea that I exist." Vanesa said.

"Siguro ikaw na dapat ang gumawa ng first move Vanesa lalo na ngayon baka lalo ka nyang hindi mapansin dahil dun sa bago nating classmate na kamuka ni Nicasha."

"My gosh Elaine, you know I hate doing the first move. Hindi ako pokpok gaya ng Nicasha na yun. Beside, that Milly ghost is not a threat. Wala ngang pakelam sakanya si Theo." Vanesa said.

"But we all saw how they stared at each other kanina. Parang may something?" Elaine said.

"Shut up Elaine. Wag mong bigyan ng meaning lahat ng napapansin mo." Sharise said.