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This is no more a love letter to you is a letter of hate, despair, heart break and pain
Cause it took me 5 years , before I could get myself to write this
In order to vent out my anger and frustration, just maybe this might be my first step to recovery
Words can't express how scattered my soul feels as you dimmed the ever glowing light inside my heart
Back on the road,I thought of no one else but you,as i couldn't wait to be in your arms again
But all my excitement and Joy were all scattered at that moment
That moment I tried so hard to erase from my mind,to bury it in the deepest part of my heart
But can anyone truly hide pain?
Cause as much as i try, it keeps on creeping back on to this prefect face of mine
With every of my dream hunted by that image.
By my demon
That demon that laughs in my face and tells me I deserved everything I got from you
Okay I think I should remind you,what you have done, cause I know you have moved on with your life forgetting all the damage you had caused me
So just like every young girl I had always dreamt about my Mr perfect
Tall, dark skinned, body of a Greek god with eyes so blue just like the ocean
Always imagining the day when he would come and sweep me off my feet and we would ride off together into the sunset with nothing or no one stopping us back
Yes, I know it may seem funny but that was what I felt
Praying each day that I would finally get to meet him and my life would change forever
Which it did after I found you, and i fell helplessly and hopelessly in love with you
You were all could ever imagine and more
Knocking down every bar I did set up
And shattering down all my walls, I did manage to build up
You had me hooked on you like an addictive drug
Yea, You were so Perfect
And when I had to travel,been away from you hurts, as I couldn't wait to see you again
As I waited patiently, eagerly awaiting the moment when we could see each other again
But that moment soon turned out to be my worst nightmare
Remember that night, when your kisses became aggressive and intense , and I foolishly thought it was because you had missed me so much
But no it wasn't......
Your touch became more of a punishment than a bliss , burying your fingers deep into my skin with so much intensity I screamed out in pain
I told you to stop, no I begged you to stop
Cause I knew I didn't want to be taken like this, I didn't want to be possessed with so much angry and rage
But no, you didn't listen
So piece by piece you took away my essence as I cried out for you to stop
I needed you to stop......
Struggling , Screaming and pleading
I knew I didn't want this, I knew love shouldn't be this way
But you kept on going, I could still remember the look in your eyes as I struggled to set myself free from you
With no strength left to fight..
I gave in.....
Laying still,closing my eyes
Accepting my fate.....
Confused as to why my perfect dream
Just easily turned out, to be my biggest night mare
Asking myself constantly....
Did you do it to punish me? Did I deserve it?
Wondering how the love we both shared, just didn't matter to you anymore
Cause all I saw in your eyes were all hatred for me
For the woman you claim to love..
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