Raising Child System [on hold]

Chapter 8 - I must tell you

Xue-sama looks at Lisheng with what seems to be... a hateful gaze ? He then rolls his eyes and says

'I have some things to do, I left you money on the table if needed. See you later Fu-kun '

he ads while looking one more time at Lisheng before leaving the room

I noticed that Xue-sama often gazes badly at Lisheng, but when he looks at me all I see is gentleness. I wonder why he don't like him... I don't understand ?

Anyway, I focus my attention on Lisheng.

I hope he's okay. Before when we were on the street I almost fall and he tried to help me which caused him to hit his head against the floor while I landed on him. Thankfully nothing serious happen to his head. I blush when I think of the position we were in... so embarrassing !!

I catch Lisheng looking at me which makes me blush harder

'let's go to bed !'

his eyes seems to shift black and I realized that what I just say can seems confusing !

'w-what I wanted to say is to go to bed to rest ! be-because of your head hurting you know! I-I'm going to get water you can go sit!'

I then run out to the little kitchen.

I must have been so awkward.

I don't want to know what he is thinking oh no (╥﹏╥)

Anyway I have to help him lesser his pain because it is my fault if it's hurt ! I take a glass of water and come back to him now that I have calm down. I gave him the glass and he drinks from it while keeping a hand on his head

'a-are you better ?'

'mmm I will be if you let me do something'

he says while looking straight at me with a burning gaze. I don't know why but I feel a little uncomfortable and... a little hot. It's not the first time that I catch him looks at me like that. I am not Virgin Mary despite what most of people think, I know what that look mean : on the street I often have this looks directed to me. And God I find it disgusted.
But Lisheng... is Lisheng.He is not disgusting like these men. On the contrary for me he is like a... an an anchor, a light, my light.

Whatever, I mean, I must be crazy to even think that he could be attracted to someone like me. After all I myself am so dirty. How could someone still want me. I have to stop being so delusional

'what could help?' I answer determined to help him feel better

'let me put my head on your legs to rest for a moment'

'?' did I hear right ? He keeps on looking at me while waiting for an answer

I blush
'o-okay!'

He smiles and start positioning himself on my laps. I'm sitting on the border while he lies down on the bed and put his head on my legs, his head facing my my my... you know right ! He closes his eyes and stop moving.

aaa I don't know what to do ? I don't move. And everything is so calm. Quiet. It's a relaxing silence though.I check that his eyes are really close and let out a chuckle. His hair are so messy ! I move my hand and help rearange them. So soft, so comfortable to touch... wait what am I doing again ? it funny how I feel so much... closer to touch him like this. Intimate.

We are used to touch each other a lot. Especially during our life in the street, but it was only for warming ourself up because, well, staying alive in the snow with only a thin piece of clothes on you is so difficult. I tear up a little while thinking of what we have undergoes during those times .