Mello's Final Thoughts

The pain....oh God, how I can feel the pain. I know what happens next. I suppose death's for the best. I can't live in a world without you Matt. You're gonna be the last person I think about I swear it. I don't care that Near's gonna win. I could care less. I got you killed, Matt. I'm so, so, so sorry. I can't and won't ever forget everything we ever did. From the first time I met you up until the last moment I saw you. I still remember you trying to show me how to play that damn Gamecube. Hey Matt, can you hear me? Are you in Heaven or Hell? Will I be wherever with you? I can't be a whole eternity without you. I can feel my rosary dangling, but I don't want to reach for it. I can't move my body. The pain's too strong. Not as strong of a pain as when I found out you got shot. Hey Mail....I love your real name and I love you. I honestly do. There's never been anyone else. It's always been you. There's so many things racing through my head. I suppose that's what they mean by "life flashing before your eyes." All my memories seem to be drifting to you. The pain's letting up now. I can feel myself leaving. Drifting. Calmness. Peace. No! My thoughts need to be on you! I promised myself they'd be on you! Hey Mail, do you remember our first kiss? I'm focused on that. That magical feeling. Yeah....that's my final thoug-