Your typical life story.

I grew up with my mom, my dad, my brother who is 5 years older than me, and my sister who's 3 years older, and which names I would rather not discuss. I had a mixed childhood. My mom would constantly work for the sake of our health, my father would stay at home typically to make us 3 meals a day, unless my mom had off in the morning then she would make breakfast, my brother who has autism would get into fights with me at times but normally would get along with me activity wise, and finally my sister who would always be there for me no matter what the case. She used to read me stories at such a young age of only 6 and had this incredibly singing voice when we went to church. Then problems came along and unfortunately she died a year later... My dad claimed he couldn't handle more stress so he took on my mom and brother on a fight, my mom was being attacked and my brother resisted. Now I understand, why didn't I do something? I was only 4 at the time, taking on a man who works out in the outside and at gyms would be a suicide mission. Right as my mom was let lose after being hit in the gut so many times, we ran straight to the car with my sister helping me get to the car as fast as possible to leave, immediately, he shot the gun at her. 

We went to court and he pleaded self defense. That bastard couldn't deal with Jail if he was guilty. He would've been dead because he's weak internally. Definitely deserves that place however after what he did to an innocent. The question still remains whether it was self defense or not. Fortunately and unfortunately, we left no matter the case, he did win the case even though it was a big risk of his to provide small evidence. He also could have won due to bribery. Where we lived, it wasn't very hard to be bribed of money, and he gets most of his money through suing. One time he made this incredibly immature act of suing a McDonald's because he tripped and fell due to a crack in the road, said the roads weren't being taken care of by the company so he made some money that day. To be fair, I never liked him. He was always the selfish type other than the fact he would give us meals everyday, I can't say I hate him for that.

I grew up and left to another state just below where I lived. This part of my life was where I started to like the feeling of having a girl friend by my side, because they are someone who you can talk to and rant to, but be wary that some girls don't have the answer for everything, and you need to be careful of how you talk to them, girls have feelings remember. I digress, I went to intermediate school when I first moved here, it was all fun and games until middle school came around. Feels like many people now-a-days from what I'm gathering have the same depressed issues I had in middle school as well, can't say I blame them, it was very stressful. Oh speaking of stress, I'm not going to say everybody but for those who randomly assume bullies bully because they've been bullied in the past, sometimes that is true but everyone is different, some people are not like others, don't judge a person if they're bullying, try to acknowledge their feelings and talk to them rationally. Other than sit there and do nothing about their actions, because they're hurting the victim. Getting back on topic, I had a girl friend in the 9th grade who invited me to a dance. Little did I know she made a bet with someone to invite two boys instead of just one. To determine who she liked more. Before this happened, she was with me but had a crush on another boy. Guess what happened. It's rather simple to explain. I stayed with her! Ya no sadly relationships like this fall downhill. She practically ignored me the entire time. I was sitting at the snack bar alone stress eating whether or not she would ask me to dance. I danced once with her the entire time. She had no intentions on dancing with me the entire time, but she did with the other boy she had a crush on. Disclaimer: I had no idea this was a bet at the time until her friend told me what she was doing was a bitch move, and no doubt it was. This made me hate girls after being rejected a couple times real life. I got myself a phone and I started online dating instead, but not through dating apps. I understand dating apps, and I'm not trying to be a hypocrite here, but most of the time I see people on dating apps are looking for sex and appearance. I understand that's not the case all the time. I look for love from girls who want to love me for me, and I give them almost everything I can possibly show them. I really don't like it when girls give me issues on whether I'm being too nice or if I'm being too strict on other people, but I have reasons for those behaviors, and whether they're older than me or younger, don't manipulate my choices, I can do whatever the hell I want to do. I'm not trying to force people to do something, rather suggest and, fingers crossed, make them happier? Sadly it doesn't always work. Often times I can't even do anything without being yelled at once. This doesn't just go for one person right now ha ha, this goes out to all the girls I tried to help and give them my respect, but I don't like the online relationship as much as meeting the person in real life. That's what makes me happy, because like it or not, that's how I am, go suck a pickle haha. I guess I'm now saying my feelings more than my life. Let's get back on topic.

Alrighty, so now this is the part of the story where I first explain what love is. Love to me has two meanings. If anybody's an Undertale fan, love stands for (L)evel (O)f (V)iolenc(E). Love in real life stands for true romance. The Undertale L.O.V.E. can sometimes be brought to you in real life coming with true romance. Situations like these are common for some relationships, but sometimes for online relationships. It doesn't have to be bad all the time, love has its struggles. I won't say it's the same for every relationship. It can also be physical, but that's usually where relationships end if it gets too severe. Mental L.O.V.E. is more common in a scenario like this one. It can be good for lovers to have this in their life to deal with our feelings, and afterwards help each other figure out what to do next. This relationship for this chapter was my first online relationship. Her name was Victoria. We weren't together very long. I had to learn off of my flaws to eventually learn how to talk to my girl friends online. Which in my case is probably the worst way to cope with online people. Good news is I'm much more rational and mature about my decisions than I was. Sometimes I still haven't learned everything but that's okay. How can you avoid the same mistake from happening twice? Go through it once and do your overall best not to repeat. This method works for almost every problem, it depends really. Take advantage of calls as well, girls this goes to you as well. I'll be honest, if you ever get a situation where you can call a boy/girl then call them, don't wait for them to ask because they don't know if you can or not, and you're hurting their feelings because of it. Think of it this way, don't rely on the other to ask you, instead tell them if it is at all possible, maybe even spare a minute that's all it takes for them to see your smile and hear your voice. There is a total of 1,440 minutes in a single day, give them your attention. There's plenty of time to do it once. Don't fight with them because you're afraid, that's not healthy for the other sex. Don't think about yourself over the other all the time, because they could actually need some help here and there. This is pretty much all the advice I can give to online love. Oh! Be social! Get friends who can take you out to other places so you can have time to call your true love once or twice. like for real, the most common issue I have with calling my girl friends is because they're isolating themselves from going out with friends, whilst I may be antisocial too, but I can always call because my parents don't care if I have a girl or not ha ha. Girls it's a different story because fathers are most of the time overprotective of them. So this goes to more girls than guys. Some fathers may not want their daughter to have a guy so this is very helpful. Anywhosywhatty, I was talking assertively not aggressively, I have a girl I am committed to for love and I love her with all my heart and I'll still love her for now and forever, she understands me thoroughly and even bought a bracelet with my name on it, I thought that was the sweetest thing she's ever done to remember that I'm always here for her. I'm her first boy friend but right now we're best friends until this summertime so I can see her more often than we see each other now. This is an online relationship, and her name is Car. No you can not drive her. It's short of Carlene or as I like to call her Carlie sometimes haha. She's depressed, happy and fluffy as my own term. Fluffy means crazy, silly, cute, and the actual fluffy word itself hahahahah. I like using that word a lot. I understand I'm weird but I like being weird. 

This is where I'm gonna leave off for now, plenty more tales to tell in the future, and maybe even some new ones too. I'll be open to anything that comes along and I'll give tips as well on my personal experience so stay tuned. I look forward to this summer. Wish me luck that everything goes well and that my future is as hoped it would be. For now, think in the present. The present is a gift that you have to take advantage of, get out there and start working on your plans, let the present be your goal for your good future. The littlest things have the biggest impact. Remember that.