Blurry Visions

mistake

I walked into this dreaded high school doors and went to be greeted by my best gay friend
"Hey"lucas greets me with a smile
"Hey"I smiled
We talked and walked to our lockers
"So you have your got a man yet or no?"lucas said staring at me like I was guilty
"Im not into dating lucas"i said closing my locker
" not anymore that is brace face"he said
"Yes because I've dated a small amount of guys and nothing ended good"
"That's why you need a good guy"Matthew said slinging his arm over my shoulder
"Good guys only exist in movies"lucas whines
"Or are in books and Netflix movies and series"I sigh
"What no you'll find one eventually"he shakes me
"I'm done dating"I sigh
"But don't you have a crush"Matthew says squeezing his arm a little
"Yeah but she's just checking him out and I am too to see if he's good enough for her"Lucas says with a little wink towards me
I laughed and Matthew saw his friends and left
"You have horrible taste in guys both the guys you like in the school are horrible"Lucas shakes his head staring at Matthew and looking to the side to see my crush who was none other than Matthew
"There's no good guys and slight good in them
"Matthew admitted he wanted me but I know he was only using me a getaway after his ex hurt him and because he felt pitty on me my whole life I was bullied because I was a tomboy, was pretty enough,wasnt the right size or weight The rest of the day went by fast me and Lucas ate under the bleachers to have our annual life talk as well were begging Matthew and his friends sat above us
"Yo Mat wassup with you and that weird chick?"
"Who?"
"Nah the one you were talking to in the morning so are yall a thing or what"the friend laughed
"She's got nice ass and tits tho id bang her"another commented
"Yeah she's being all feisty but um getting there"Matthew shrugged
I felt myself become still and hurt after a while they left
"I'm sorry"Lucas said sympathetically
"It's my fault for thinking someone would like me but good guys don't exist"I said laughing
"Cheers to that and we both clicked our mountain dew cans together as i walked to the gate Mathew and his friends saw me and they started whooping and making sounds to get him to notice me whilst he was with his ex Lauren I walked on and ignored them I heard footsteps and Matthew caught up with me
"Hey"he said breathing in
"what"I said
"Hey you OK?"he said looking at me worriedly
"Like you'd care I said walking faster but only to have him walking faster
"Did Lucas do something I swear its always these...
"don't even say it Lucas is more a friend to me than you've ever been"i spat
"I've always been there for you to talk to even before he came and took you away from me"he angrily shouted back
"Well I'm glad he did because you were only my friend but you were my friend for my body and sex nothing more nothing less I'm nothing more than a sexual conquest to you so do me a favor and stay away from me and my friend"i said and walked away putting my headphones as I was walking I felt a hand grab my shoulder i turned to see John Matthews friend
~what Johnathan ~i spoke with venom
~Calm down Ronda Rowsy~he laughed I immediately turned around but he walked in front of me and said ~look I'm sorry about Matthew he's just heartbroken over Lauren ~with sympathy
~then go comfort him I couldn't care less~i spat
~please the rest of the guys are just using this as an excuse but please I know he acts like a hormonal teenager but don't give up on him I beg you~he pleaded
~ok are we don here~i asked wanting to go
Hr sighed heavily
~yes we are~he said sounding defeated
I decided to try and forget about today so I switched on my laptop and began watching to all the boys I've loved wishing I was Lara jeen after a my phone rang and it was Lucas
~hey~i said
~hey what chu up to?~
~watching Netflix you?~
~same,something shitty happened after we heard Matthew talking~
~what did that Lil hoe, did he try to touch you oh I swear I will...~
~no~i laughed
I told Lucas what happened
~I sorry so he was about to say it's always these what?~Lucas said angirly
~is that all you heard~i laughed
I heard the door knock
~gotta go someone's at the door ~i said getting up
~what did he say it's always these what?~i heard Lucas shout before I hung up I laughed and got up I got to see Lucas waiting for me at the door still looking a bit angry
~get dressed were going to a party ~Lucas said
~since when do we do parties?~i asked
~Yolo you know ~he said with a fake smile
~you wanna give Matthew a piece of your mind dont you?~i asked putting my face in my palm
~yes now let's go ~he said pulling me upstairs and fixing me up

(Above is Cathy's outfit)
*Fast forward into the party*

it was kinda fun until I heard Matthews voice
~And you brought the fag too wow just great guys you better stay clear or the fag might get you~ Matthew said causing his group of friends to holler

just as i was about to talk Lucas decided to
~unlike you i have good taste in the people l date and don't mope around crying over exes that i know will never come back,oh wait where is she~we all looked at the couch to see her making out with some guy
~wow seems your ex has taste too~Lucas said leaving pulling me with him
we went into the kitchen to see some guys making gay remarks towards Lucas
~yet your girls still come crying to me about your relationship issues takes notes boys~he said pouring us both punch and we both drank till I felt something terrible was about to happen