𝕤𝕠𝕝𝕓𝕪

Chapter 1

"beep. beep. beeeeeeeeep."
The doctors came rushing in from the hallway. Tears came rushing to his eyes, yet he knew it was going to happen sooner or later.

                                                                                                                *2 days later*

"Hey guys it's Colby here and today will be more of a serious video. So some of you guys may have found out already but my mother has passed away 2 days ago while fighting cancer. I will be taking a break from all social media for a few weeks to improve my mental state. I am asking two things and only two things. One, please do not come to her funeral. I really appreciate how much you guys care but I feel that it should only be for those who knew her personally. And second please don't start any drama while I'm gone. I hate to see you guys fighting and arguing with eachother."

Colby stopped recording and turned off the camera. The memories came flooding back and tears started to fill his eyes. Her messy dark brown hair, her bright blue eyes and her comforting stories. He started crying, louder and louder as he went deeper and deeper into thought. He missed her so much. He wished to hear her voice one last time, and wished he could hug her one last time.

He heard footsteps but didn't care. It was Sam. He saw Colby crying and immediately engulfed him in a tight hug.

"You will get through this." Sam wispered into the brunettes ear.

"I know but I really miss her, she has helped us so much."

Sam and colby have been friends since highschool. They have been through so much, they fell in love with the same girl, started vine together, Moved to LA together and started a youtube channel with each other. They have even traveled to foreign countries together. They wouldn't be anything if they weren't together.

The rest of the trap house was going to be home from the gym soon so the two boys decided to go upstairs to Colby's room. Colby, still crying, layed down on his bed. Sam was still standing and decided to lay down next to colby. He wrapped his arms around Colby to try and comfort him. His phone started ringing, he just ignored it and continued holding the other boy. His phone rang again and this time he decided to pick it up and see who it was. It was his girlfriend, Katrina. He got up walked out to the hallway, and answered the call.

"Where are you? You were supposed to be here 20 minutes ago." Katrina complained.

"Sorry I got distracted, I'm on my way." 

"Ok, love you sammy."

"Love you too, Kat."

Sam walked back into Colby's room.

"Hey, I gotta go over to Kat's house. I'll have to talk to you later, bud."

"Ok. Have fun."

Sam went and changed into his merch and headed over to Katrina's house.

                                                                                                                  Colby's POV

Sam wrapped his arms around me. My heart started fluttering. I have feelings for Sam, but I can't admit my feelings because Sam is dating Kat, and I wouldn't want to ruin their relationship. Sam's phone started ringing but he just ignored it. It rang again but this time instead of ignoring it he left the room and answered it. Sam walked back in the room.

"Hey, I gotta go over to Kat's house. I'll have to talk to you later, bud."

"Ok. Have fun." I disappointedly replied.

I turned and faced my wall. Disappointed that Sam left. I started crying again, and wished Sam was here to comfort me. The rest of the trap house was still at the gym, so I am alone.

                                                                                              Trigger Warning!!! *Yea I'm doing this already*

I got clothes and went into the bathroom to take a shower. I took off my shirt and looked in the mirror. I hated what I saw, a skinny, worthless, emo boy. I decided to get in the shower before I did anything to hurt myself. I got in the shower and started thinking again. Sam always put Kat before me. I was his best friend I shouold be his number one priority. Especially when he knows I need him. I'm broken and only he can fix me.

I heard a door close down stairs, follwed by laughter. It was the roommates. They were always so happy and I don't understand why I can't be that happy. I looked around and picked up the blade stitting on the edge of the shower, and start slowly swiping it across my wrist.

1 for being depressed. 2 for loving sam. 3 for being too skinny.

I was interupted by a loud knock on the bathroom door. I was startled and dropped the blade, which was now covered in blood along with my wrists. It went straight into the drain, never to be seen agian.

                                                                                                           End of Trigger Warning!!!

"Hey colby, hurry up we are about to go to Tinder Greens with the roommates, Kat, and Brennen." Corey yelled through the door.

"Ok, give me a few more minutes and I'll be ready."

I quickly got out of the shower and went straight to my closet to get clothes.

After getting dressed I ran down the stairs and Corey, Devyn, Aaron, and Jake were all waiting for me.

"Sam, Kat and Brennen are meeting us at Tender Greens." Jake said.

"Sweet, lets get going."

A/N thanks for reading! Hope you guys enjoyed!

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