Librus de Nox

Tertiam Clavem ( The Invitation)

The Night Before My 13th birthday

A hooded man visited my dream. In my dream I was sitting at the couch then the hooded man appeared out of nowhere and said

Ye who attained knowledge of the craft.

We have come to claim your soul.

Then from my room I was at the top of the pyramid facing the sunrise and the hooded figure floats on mid air and said

He will grant ye power of the pharaohs a like.

Then from the pyramids I was at the top of Mount Everest then the hooded figure said.

He will grant ye the power of the elements.

And then all of a sudden the whole surroundings were swallowed by darkness and he appeared in front of me and said

He will grant thee what ye desire.

But ye must entrust thy soul to Samhain.

(I can't remember if its Samhain or Samael )

In my knowledge Samhain is the feast for the horned god of the wiccans. However I said no to the offer. I said to the hooded man that I will not entrust my soul to anyone. He said to me this phrase.

We will be watching you!

And then I woke up.

I told my cousin what I dreamt and she said that she dreamt that too, however it was for Astarte and unlike me she said yes to it.

We did not tell it to our parents because they are catholics and they would panic if they found out.

I cannot say that I'm a wiccan and I cannot say that I'm a faithful Christian. all I can say that I have my beliefs different that others. I am fond of esoteric arcane magic so its definitely not wiccan and christian.

I'm still searching for the truth of my existence and that invitation is one of the reason why I'm still keep on searching. some may say that I'm a fool because the horned god already given me grace but I rejected it. but I don't care as long as my soul is mine alone I would not desire anything.

I still got the gift although its not powerful than my cousins still I have it. and I can say to my self that I still have my soul.

After my birthday

After that strange dream and my birthday I felt a strange energy inside of me. Then the time that I was in the middle of the class and some jerk unfortunately pissed me off by throwing some crumpled paper at me. hitting my head and all of the sudden then he said.

Sorry if I hit your head freak!

I cannot contain my anger, it seems that I'm full of it. I just thought that all the papers that he's holding blew into his face. The air inside the room acted strange and blew all the papers that the said person is holding at that time into his face. He was stunned about what happened. he never talked not said a word about me after that. I was shocked that I was able to do that.