psycho | adam banks & luis mendoza ²

(4) back stories

Jae:

"I've missed you so much," He whispers as he hugs me so tightly.

"I missed you more," I admit honestly. Taking a step back from the hug, I look at him. He's grown up too but haven't we all. As a teenager, I never thought I would have such good looking friends later in life.

"How are you?" He asks as he stares at me. It was like he was trying to remember every new feature.

"Better," I respond with a smile. I know I'm not better, my mind is still consumed with thoughts of Adam Banks and I hate it. He broke me yet I still love him with everything in me. And it's not fair to Grayson. I'll admit, I liked him before I was put away but he's not Adam. While I was in that stupid place, every single thought of mine was about him. I did miss my friends and I thought about them too but with Adam, it was much different. I didn't just miss him, I craved him. I needed him and I hated that I did. Even if Adam and I never get back together, I want him in my life.

"Jae?" Grayson's voice brings me out of my mind.

"Sorry I was thinking. What did you say?" I ask.

"You're always thinking," He replies with a laugh, I was told that so many times when I was younger. "Luis and I thought it would be cool if we took you out to explore LA. We both took the weekend off so we could spend time with you. Connie also wants to see you so we're going to meet up for dinner and go shopping after in about an hour if you're up for it?"

"I'd love to, just let me get ready," I say smiling. I lean up and kiss him gently on the cheek before disappearing down the hallway Luis went down earlier. I find Luis putting all my clothes into drawers. I smile as I take a look around my new room, Luis and Grayson really outdid themselves.

Her room:

A cute vanity moment:

"Luis, this is amazing," I say as I enter the room fully. He turns around and smiles brightly at me.

"Gray and I started this about four months ago. When we found when you were getting out, we started right away," He says.

"I love you," I say as I pull him into a hug. I hear him laugh as he wraps his arms around me.

"You guys are really the best," I whisper to him as we pull away.

"Anything for you," He says happily. I see the boxes on my huge bed. I quickly walk over and rip one open, revealing the tons of makeup Bunny has given me over the years. Before Bunny had her accident, she did a lot of makeup. She's amazing at it. She even taught me how to do a lot of stuff.

"Where did you get all of this?" Luis asks as he comes up behind me. I begin organizing all of my makeup on my vanity.

"Bunny gave me all of this over the years. She taught me how to do makeup. She's really good at it," I explain. He smiles brightly as he sits down on my bed.

"Can I watch you do it?" He asks. I smile as I turn around.

"Sure," I say as I grab my favorite eye shadow palette. I do my eyebrows and conceal them.

"How did she get all of this?" Luis asks as he looks through all of my makeup.

"Her boyfriend Max would bring all this stuff for her when he visited," I say as I blend the concealer out with a concealer brush.

"They allowed her boyfriend to visit?" Luis asks. I sigh and nod my head before telling him Bunny's sad story.

"Her parents died in a car accident when she was in tenth grade. She was the only child. None of her family would take her in because of her mental illness, she had bipolar two. Her boyfriend was all she had so the hospital put him down as her family. He said he felt terrible about signing her up so he would bring her stuff in hopes of making her feel better," I explain. His face turns soft and he looks upset.

"That's sad. I wish she didn't have to go through all that. She seems like a really nice person," He says sadly as I blend a red-brown eyeshadow color into my crease.

"She is, she helped me through so much," I explain as I continue blending my eye shadow.

"What about your other friends?" He asks.

"Jayson and I became really close because we were both in there for almost the same reason. His girlfriend of two years cheated on him and he walked in on them. He wanted to surprise her for Valentine's Day but he was in for a real surprise. I guess we kind of went through the same heartbreak, so we related to each other," I say sadly as I continue on with my makeup. I remember all of Valentine's days when Jay would show up at my door, sobbing, asking for help. I never knew really what to do since I was still as heartbroken as he was.

"What about the other guy?" Luis asks. I could tell he really didn't care but wanted to keep the conversation. I could tell Luis really didn't like Tyler.

"Oh, that's Tyler. He was in there because he was just bad. His parents feared he would only get worse. He would do drugs and would drink. He even had a reputation for being some type of sex god, and he was only fourteen!" I explain. "But I meant the boys through a project at school there and Bunny has always been my roomie."

"Can I tell you something, Luis?" I ask as I turn around from my seat. He looks up at me and I could see the anger in his eyes from our previous conversation. He nods his head and I sigh before telling him.

"When I was in there, I missed all of you so much. Especially you. I was so used to seeing you every day, I was so sad without you. This is going to be the most selfish thing I'm going to say but Tyler was my Luis when you weren't there," I say. He looks at me confused so I continue. "Tyler reminds me so much of you. I got close with him because he would constantly flirt with me and would try to get in my pants. He was there for me when I needed someone but he wasn't you. No one could ever compare to you or our relationship."

"I don't trust him," Luis replies plainly.

"Why not?" I ask.

"I just don't want Grayson to find out and be upset about it," He says. I felt my heart break as he says those words, did he really think that low of me? That I would hurt Grayson like that? I mean, he might be right. My heart still belongs to Adam yet I have something with Grayson. I really am a bad person and Luis does have a reason to worry.

"I don't feel anything for him. He's just one of my best friends," I say.

"I'll leave you to get ready. I want to get changed out of this suit anyways," He says as he leaves the room. I sigh as I continue on with my makeup. Luis' words bother me and I wonder if his words have a deeper meaning than what he told me

i'm so sorry i haven't been updating. i'm going through a really hard time. i'm trying my hardest to write but it really is hard when i'm this upset. i'm sorry i'm trying my best. i love you 💕