a song a story

Bird by billie marten

Listen while you read!
So far these songs are sad, I'll try and do a happy one next...

I'm sick of it.
Sick of the lies.
Sick of the fake smiles and reassuring voices.
I'm sick of being known as the dead woman's daughter.
I'm sick of feeling like I'm drowning.
I'm just so sick of it.
My fingers grip around the door knob.
My legs shake.
In the night in the dark I step out of the light into the engulfing darkness.
And I walk... far away.

No body can see me any more.
Day after day I am filled to the brim with words of reassurance.
"She'll pull through" they say confidently.
Can't they just stop lying to me, I do know what's going on for goodness sake!
I feel trapped.
Caught.
Stuck.
I don't mind
These 3 words leave my mouth every day.
I don't mind
But even with a brave face on.
People still see through it and those are the people who can truly see.
The people who believe me are blind.

The fragments of hope left in me are too far for me to reach.
Why did this happen to her?
Why now?
Images flash through my head, only a week ago we were laughing.
We were going to get matching tattoos!
We were going to be happy.
But that will never happen now.
As she neared to the end I bet she was shouting eternally.
Wishing the people would leave her in peace.
But what would I know Im to "young" to see a dying person.
Too young to see my own god damn mother.

My feet move silently through the grass.
The moon lights the lake before me.
I take a step into the mild water and it engulfs me.
I step deeper until the water caves over my head.
The water silencing the shouts in the distance.
They never cared anyway.
They never really even looked at me.
They were to afraid of seeing a broken girl.
Seeing a girl who was lost.
I don't mind I whisper as the water slips down my throat into my lungs.
I don't mind
Is the last thought I have.
A thought that would last forever.
And somewhere far away time stops.

Hope you enjoyed it
If there are mistakes please tell me!

Bye
Xxx