a song a story

Drown (cover) by faith marie

This ones based sorta on the song... sorta not tho..

"Madeline?"
I look up with uncertainty painted on my face. My heart stops when I see the tear stained face above me.
"No.." I whisper
"He's ok right?" I say smiling.
"He didn't make it" she cried
And then and there I froze.
A smile froze onto my face
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"Hey!" I exclaim cheerily as I wander through the hallway.
A few hello's echo back and I nod towards the few smiling faces.
No one can understand how I'm so happy after what happened.
What they don't know is that I'm not happy.
I'm not strong enough to hold the weight of the world.
But I'm going to try my best.
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"Bye meg!" I yell
"Bye mad!" She yells back.
I unlock the front door stepping into a subdued darkness.
Throwing my back on the ground I walk up the stairs thankful that my parents aren't home yet.
As I enter my room the pain filled smile falls from my face.
"Why did you go?" I whisper staring at the roof as I lay on my bed.
"Who will make me smile now?" I cry.
"Why did you leave me to do this on my own! It's so hard! I can't do this on my own" I sob.
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The front door opens breaking the heavy silence.
I wipe my face quickly and move to my desk to do homework.
My mother walks in
"Hey I'm home" she says.
I turn to face her grinning.
"Hey! How was your day? Did you get your delivery done?" I gush out in a bubbly voice.
She nods
"I'll go make food, pasta ok?" She says
I nod.
My mum turns shutting the door behind her and my smile drops again.
"This is so hard" I whisper in a shaky voice.
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I walk through the school yard towards our tree.
It's right in the back corner no one even knows it's there.
And it's our spot
Well it was our spot.
I let the tears escape while I sat down.
"Are you ok madi?" A voice asks making me jump.
I look up into a pair of concerned green eyes.
Jacob.
"Yeah!" I say wiping my eyes.
"Hay fever.." I mumble.
He sits next to me.
"You don't have to fake it around me, now be honest are you okay?" Jacob asks
I gulp and the emotion rushes.
"No" I say closing my eyes.
"I'm not ok" I sob leaning into him.
"It's not alright anymore" I cry harder.
Jacob wraps his arms around me solemnly.
"I would say it will be ok, but I know you don't want to hear it" he says.
"I can't take it anymore, this silence without him" I say.
Jacob hugs me tighter.
"I'll be here ok, you don't have to be alone" he says.
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Some days I wish I was dead instead, it's easier then wishing to be killed.
Some days I wish it destroyed me
I hate being broken.
I stumbled through the cemetery breathing fast.
It's the first time I've visited him since he passed.
I soon came to a stone
Trent
Beloved brother and son
Miss you already
I miss you already T and I always will
I crumble next to the stone resting against it.
"I miss you brother" I say as I fumble through my bag.
"I'll see you soon though right?" I laugh.
My hand wraps around the cold handle and I bring it out of the bag.
"I love you" I whisper
"Always have always will"
I raise the cold barrel of the gun to my temple.
"See you soon little brother"
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Thanks for reading guys Xxx
(Sorry for dampening Your mood....)