You confuse me
To the point of hatred and frustration.
Every feeling in my body
Every smile I've ever had
You confuse the fuck out of me, and I don't understand
You exist.
But for what?
You sit there and eat like a piece of shit
Wallowing in self pity .
And you can't even take care of yourself
Letting the hands of time wash you down it's dark path until there is nothing left of you while I can do nothing but beg for you to stop and hold your hand.
I can only do this for so long until there will be nothing left of me
But by that time, I'll have made the people around me mean something
We all die
It's unavoidable
So why do you purposefully kill yourself.
Smoking those sticks of poison like it will kill and replace all of the sins you have committed
What the fuck is wrong with you
Your sick
You've been sick
I tried to save you
And you left me in the dust
Abandoned me until I was forced to fend for myself in a world where up until now, I was beaten and bruised, taking every single hit from you
Every time you treated me like shit
Every time you stole something from me
Or treated me like a slave
Or made me cry
You fucked me up.
And every single time you cried, I was there
You can not possibly understand how angry I had felt and still feel.
How betrayed my mind was.
And how I bled my heart out every time you would dwindle me down to nothing, and tell me that my worth of trying didn't amount to shit.
We use the drugs that they take from us to replace the love the world takes from us.
I love you but I fucking hate you at the same time.
Even if, I'll always be there to hold your hand while you cry...
