Lucky Fan

5- Regret

Jungkook POV

I feel bad for just leaving her like that but I didn't really have much of a choice. It's not like I loved her or anything but i didn't want to completely upset her either. She wasn't like most fans who only wanted me for the sex. I mean she didn't even know who I was and she was more concerned about if she was wasting my time. Most girls aren't like that. And it made my heart flutter to say the least. I deleted my number from her phone and our messages. I didn't want her to have a way to contact me.

I didn't delete her number though. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I barely know this girl yet she already has such an impact on me. It was already 12:30pm and I needed to meet up with the rest of bts in 30 minutes. I quickly got dressed putting on a black hoodie and some jeans, packed the rest of my stuff and headed to the lobby. But on the way there, he saw the person he didn't want to see. You. I just stood there in the lobby looking at her for a while. I noticed her hair seemed a bit crazy, her lips were pouting a bit, and her eyes were puffy. I also took note of the glossy look her eyes had.

Was she crying?

God my heart aches at that but idk why.

She finally looked back at me. She had her suitcase with her so I assumed she was leaving the hotel. I wanted to run up to her and tell her I didn't want to just leave her like that. I wanted to tell her I'm not a heartless person who actually cares about her. I at least wanted to say goodbye to her. But I didn't. I just turned around and walked the other way.

I wish things could be so much easier. But if I walked up to her then, I would have gotten a lot of questions. It's not that hard to recognize me in public and there would have been no doubt been news articles all about how I was talking to a fan at a hotel because everyone blows situations way out of hand these days. I didnt want to get her involved with the media. So I thought this was the best option for us.

Oh god I'd I had known how wrong I was.

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I originally was going to discontinue this book but I decided not to.

I'm not going to make a whole long paragraph making excuses for not updating this book. But I wrote another chapter. I hate this chapter so much and I feel like it's so badly written but I wanted to get something out there for now. I may update more idk but we will see.

I appreciate everyone who has read this book or my oneshot book. I love you all so much thank you for being my inspiration for writing another chapter 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜