stand by you

Let Me Help You

Pete's pov

I know I am gay but I don't have the guts to express it to my family and friends, because I have already lost my father when I try to speak to him about this. It was my mistake that my father died, I don't want to kill my mother too.

Two years ago, when I was in my final year of high school I tried to tell my father about my sexual preference while we were driving home . He was so shocked and we met with an accident. I lost my father, I made my mom a widow, everything is because of me I don't want to lose my mother too. I don't want my family to hate me.

I am already giving her a lot of trouble, when I lost my father I also lost my walking ability my right leg got paralyzed. If I fell down I won't be able to stand without anyone's help, I already wasted a year in bed and wheal chair. Whenever I think about my father and cry my mother try to soothe me , by always saying that my father loves me a lot. 

I have never told my mother about what happened on that day. But wherever I feel brave and tried to tell, she never gives me the chance.

I don't want to live in others concern anymore, I ask my mom to bought me a car without clutch so that I can drive anywhere without anyone's help my mom understands my feelings better than anyone and I also don't want to live my life as gay so I always resist my desire to love anyone and I don't want anyone's sympathy. I want to live my life as a normal person I tried my best to do my works without anyone's help

I joined in IC college to study business administration and I also Completed my first year in the university I don't have much friends because I always feel sympathy in everyone's look I don't like that and want that, I want people around me to treat me as a normal person who can do whatever he want by himself. I only have two friends who were connected with my family as business class  and know me from my childhood. I started to make myself alone which displease my mother she wants me to be a normal teenager with friends, fun and partner.

But I can't fulfill her wishes I still feel guilty about my father's death. I can't talk to her comfortably like before, 2 years before I used to be her pet, I always sleep on her lap and hugs her everyday after returning from the school. I don't want to hurt myself more by loving other so I began to love and take good care of myself, I detach myself from others except Tin and Deili.

This is my second year in the university though I cannot walk without a stick and I also walk slowly, so I used to come early in the morning to the college everyday. so that I can settle inside my class before anyone enter. Last year a senior called p'Trump follows me for more than 4 month and often asks me out to be his boyfriend. It was really a headache to me last year I refused his proposal without any explanation I thought it's not necessary.

It's already a week past in my second year but I haven't seen him these days after the college reopen. It's really a great relief.

Today I have morning classes and wake so early in the morning, I informed my mom and went to college directly, it's just 6:10 in morning so I think I can take a look around the college when I drive around the back side of the college, it's so breeze and no one is present here so I think about a small walk towards a near tree I get out of the car using my stick and starts to walk slowly towards the tree, and I think about the doctor's words.

The doctor said to my mom that I started to walk with a stick is all because of my will power, or else I might not be able walk in my entire life. So I am very much confident in my will power that I can live my life without anyone's care, support, Love and help, all I need is to make my mom feel proud and happy.

When I reach the shades of tree I stand there to feel the breeze, by the time I thought about returning to the car I feel someone touching my shoulder, when I turn around to see. I was shocked to see Trump with a sly grin on his face.

'P'Trump' I stumbled.

'How are you baby?' he asked, but I can feel coldness in his voice.

'P'Tump why are you here?' I asked trying to control my anger and fear.

'I still need my answer, Love. ' he said and caught my hand.

'What are you doing? Let me go. ' I said and struggles to relive me from his grip.

' I still love you pete.' he said.

But all these days I have never felt honesty in his eyes and voice, he really plans to do something and he never Loves me for real I can easily say it.

'I not interested in any relationship p' I said and almost in the verge of tears but I don't want to show it.

Suddenly he pull me, I fell down he drag me behind the tree without much effort. I started to cry for help but still I can't see anyone there.

'Leave me, let me go,  Help!  Help!' I cried.

He jump on me and tries to shut my mouth but I bite his hand and continue to cry for help but still there is no one he stars to unbutton my shirt, tears began to flow uncontrollably and I am shivering under his body pressure I began to cry as loud as I can. By the time he starts to kiss my neck I heard a loud voice.

'you bastered'  someone shouted.

Next second I feel completely free and light from all the grip I lost all my energy in crying and fighting against him,  I didn't even have energy to sit I was still lying on the ground.

I hear some shouting, punching and kicking sound  and I can see someone approaching me but it's not P'Trump I can feel someone lifting my upper body I opened my eyes to see I can feel comfortable with his sight and touch.

'Are you OK? ' he asked.

I don't have power to say anything so I nod.

'Let me help you.' he said.

I can feel worry in his tone I really began to feel OK.

Hi friends I suddenly have a Idea of this story, so I register this. If you like this story plz comment so that I can confidently continue this story.

I need lot of encouragement. If you give it to me I will definitely do my best.

Love you all friends.

Love Ae and Pete. 💟💟💟💟