Hi...I'm Lost...

The Skype Call

I woke up about an hour later and grabbed my phone. I unlocked my screen and clicked on the Skype icon. I had three missed calls from Kyle. I went to my messages and texted "Shes Perfect♡" Hey I'm home, call me? I pulled out my laptop and pulled up my skype on there. I got up and pulled off my skinny jeans and put on my loose shorts. My room lit up blue so I turned to my laptop, and hit the camera button. "Hey," he said and I waved hello. "Don't do this to me today...whats wrong babe?" I shook my head 'no' and smiled. "Then talk to me!" He whined, and I couldn't help but to giggle.

"No," I said smiling. My voice was scratchy for I hadn't used it in 3 days.

"Oh, I see how you is!" He said laughing. "Thought you loved me." I shook my head 'no' and smiled. "Oh okay byyye then." I laughed but knew he wasn't kidding, he hung up on me so I called him back.

"Hai," I said after he answered. He waved mocking me then laughed. "So whatchya doin?" I asked smiling. There are very few guys that can make me smile like this but Kyle is definitely my favorite.

"Talking to some random chick on Skype, whhhhat about you?" His facial features looked at me concerningly, but he still had a smile to indicate he was kidding.

"Weird, im doing the same, shes kinda pretty." As soon as the words left my mouth I hid my face with my sleeve and couldn't help but to laugh. When I looked back up his jaw was down, but there were slight hints of a hidden smile.

"Ex-Cuuuuse me! I'm drop dead sexy!" As soon as he said this he struck a gay pose in which he stood up and hit his hand on the wall. I burst out laughing and fell off my bed, then it was his turn to laugh. "Idiot," he said, sitting back down smiling.

"Jerk!" I exclaimed back flashing a hurt expression. We both burst into laughter. I heard a car door slam and knew my dad was home. I stared at the wall, waiting for the sound of his footsteps on the stairs. I looked at Kyle and he knew to keep quiet, he muted his computer and turned off his camera, as soon as I reached to do the same to mine my door flew open, the next thing I knew I was on the floor with sharp pains bursting through my ribs. I squirmed away from his foot but he grabbed my shirt and pulled me to my feet. I knew not to cry it'd just make it worse.

I looked into his eyes, slightly pleading him to stop. he let go of my shirt and I dropped to the floor, he walked out the door and slammed it shut. as soon as I heard him slam his truck door again I let the tears fall. I heard Kyles voice, I couldn't make out what he was saying but I heard him. He kept talking, his voice was soothing and I just laid there on the floor. This was the first time he's witnessed this, he just knew to always mute his laptop and I always did the same; he never knew. He didn't know why I was silent when we first met, but now he does. He's the only one who knows. I grabbed the bed for support as I slowly got up, I gently laid my aching body on the bed and turned off my camera. I didn't want him to see me like this. I guess my secrets out now, "baby, you should of told me." I heard him say, I reached over with one hand and simply typed no. "Yes," He said as a reply. im gonna go okay.... "Okay, I love you." love you too.....bye...

I hung up and closed my laptop and let more tears fall. I couldn't stop my self, I walked to the bathroom and grabbed my razor, I ran the cold blade across my thigh and let the blood cover the surrounding area. Once the bleeding stopped I turned on the shower and laid in the bottom of the tub letting my clothes get soaked.

Twenty minutes went by and I turned the water off, I took off my cold clothes and looked in the mirror to see the damage, my entire left ribcage was black and purple, I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my body. I walked into my room and to my small closet I pulled out under clothes and laid back down on my bed, pulled the covers over me and let my body pull me into a deep sleep.