My Life Story

The Beginning

Published: 2nd Feb 2019

Edited: 27th December 2021

****THE NAMES USED IN HERE ARE NOT THE REAL NAMES OF ANYONE MENTIONED****

My Past

Looking back on my life when I was younger, I knew I used to be so happy. Glowing with happiness everyday, it was perfect. Back then, I felt like I could rule the world and no one could stop me!
But that all changed as I grew older-
I'm Zyn, it's pronounced as Zin, and this is my story.

When I was younger
Youthful and Brighter me, used to go outside all the time; I never thought I would stop smiling all my life. Surprisingly, I had way more friends way back then. I believed and lived on the fact that I thought I had the most amazing life. My heart was filled with love and I shared that love with everything in my life.

Sadly now, its changed.

Back on February 2nd 2019, I went outside to hang out with my childhood friend Susan. I absolutely adored her, she was kind: smart, funny, and absolutely the best. Well that's what I thought anywho. I always smiled so much when i saw her. At that point in my life, I never told her that I actually loved her. In my family, being apart of the lgbt was frowned upon and sometimes even having black friends was frowned upon. Previously, me and her played a game of truth or dare with a few other neighborhood friends I had. Me, 'the gay kid' was dared to kiss her.

Back then, I never backed down from a dare.
Sadly, when the kiss was over, my head began to spin in love and happiness, it was the absolute greatest feeling. I loved her, and all from a game from truth or dare.
Susan, she was always so cheerful, and bright which always made my days brighter. Continuously, I would go out just to go see her to knock on her door, just to see her face even if it was just for an moment.
It's changed now though. She's moved away and i don't love her anymore. Before she left, me and her would all hang out with other neighborhood friends and go to any nearby fields; we did it so often i used to get in trouble for gone for too long. Before she left, she finally introduced me to some of her friends, from school and church. I knew they didn't  like me that much; I could see it in their eyes, they were full of anger and hate. But, i'm glad Susan liked me as a friend, at that time. It just meant that I wasn't alone.

My family were all I had before her.
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efore I even met her, all I had was my family. I used to be the family favourite; getting gifts for no reason, going to places where I could get whatever I wanted. Truth be told, I was spoiled back then. However, my family were happy back then. My dear Papa, and my awful Mother used to be so in love and happy that it made me turn away within a milisecond. Unknown to me, that was all an act. They did that in front of me so I wouldn't suspect anything bad was happening at home. As I grew older me, my 4 brothers and my sister all grew an unbreakable bond. Yet, when time is reversed, we hated each other. My sister went off to university at one point, we grew really distant, she even got a boyfriend who is now her fiance! I still can't believe they've been together for so long.

And My dear Papa, bless his soul. He's old now and can't do a lot. My favourite part of activities we did was when we would go out and do something, anything; sometimes i would even help him fix his car! I don't remember anything about cars now but it was fun to do it with him! <3

He's old now and can't do a lot to his health. He has a rare disease, it might be a cancer I'm not sure. But he was more white blood cells then red, which means he has a lot of medicine and that makes him really tired and exhausted. As time passed, We would have movie nights, game nights and so much more. Time separates the people in it, just like it did with him and me. He used to be the best dad anyone could ask for.
Playing tennis in the garden, playing fetch with the dogs, going on long walks with them and him. Sometimes we even helped my mother with the gardening eventhough we both hated dirt! It was too perfect.

I hate my mother now. No matter how hard I try, I can't and won't write a nice thing about her because she doesn't deserve it.