Spotlight -JK FF

6. Just Friends

Chapter 6-

"I can't."

I can't bear to look into his eyes so instead I slowly direct my gaze towards the ground. I wanted to tell him yes, more than anything in the world. But I couldn't. It wouldn't be fair to me or to him. I had aspired to be an idol my entire life, I didn't want to get there for the wrong reasons, my father taught me to work hard for what you want and to never take the easy way out. Saying yes to Jungkook was the easy way out. I'd be famous in the morning for dating 'international kpop sensation jungkook jeon' but, that's not who I am. I'm so much more than that. I want to be known for my voice, my talent, the legacy I leave behind, not for this.

He takes a step back and nods with a light scoff "Right, I get it. It's fine. I should go, I'll send one of the guys to pick you up tomorrow." I look up as I see him walk away and go to walk after him but I stop myself. This was me doing the right thing, with tears forming in my eyes I turned to face my door and inserted the key, I unlock it and entered, throwing my bag to the side and running upstairs to my bedroom as fast as my legs could take me.

I plonked myself onto my bed and started sobbing uncontrollably into my pillow, it wasn't a very attractive scene, my eyes rimmed with red, my sniffles echoing throughout the apartment along with the sounds of me hyperventilating incessantly. I don't know how long I was crying for but soon enough I fell asleep, with only the warmth of my tear stained pillow to comfort me.

The next day I woke up to my phone buzzing in my pocket, I flipped myself over and took it out as I slid the screen to answer, not even checking the caller ID, "Hello?" I groan in a husky morning voice, my face still feels stiff from my dried up tear stains from the night previous as I get up and make me way to the bathroom, phone in hand. "Hey y/n! It's Tae. I know Jungkook was supposed to come get you this morning but I told him that I'd do it for him instead! I was just calling to see if that would be okay with you?"

I place the phone on the side of my sink and put the speaker on as I splash my face with some cold water to freshen myself up a little, I dry off any excess water with a hand towel and reply "Yeah Tae that's fine..what's on the schedule for today? You said morning so I'm guessing we're doing something?" He stays silent for a little bit as I place my hands on each side of the sink and patiently wait for a response. "I was actually thinking that maybe um, if you wanted to, do something with me, maybe?" I stand back up and look at myself in the mirror, a shocked expression painted on my face. "Oh. Well uh, sure Tae..what do you wanna do?"

I could hear him pace up and down on the other end of the line as I anticipated what he was going to say next "Well night 2 of the tour is in Seoul is tonight, then straight after we all head to the airport together to fly to the US for the next show, but before we go there's this new little art place opened, not far from your place actually, it's quite hipster to be honest, but it used to be an old library so it's got some old charm to it, maybe you'd like to accompany me there?" Not gonna lie, the place he described sounded so cute, and I really had to get this Jungkook situation off my mind before the concert or else I'd end up having a mental breakdown centre stage, so for that reason I said "Yes! I'd love to! How about we go at like 3 ish?" "How about I pick you up at 1 and we go for lunch? Make a day out of it!" I laugh a little but shyly reply "Sure. I'll be ready for 1." "Okay, see you then.." I smile and before I end the call I say "Okay, bye.."

The day went by faster than I had anticipated, we went for lunch and spent hours talking about the most random things, ranging from his puppy Yeontan to how he feels about his newfound fame. At around 5pm we got to the little art exhibit tucked right in the hidden part of Seoul, it was something you'd never find unless you were looking for it, he showed me all the pieces and he knew the background of almost every artists painting that was on display, I could tell it was truly one of his passions and his whole face somehow lit up even just discussing it, and he had the cutest boxy little grin, if i was to describe it in one word it would be, endearing.

"You should post some pictures!" Tae exclaimed as he took off his hat and coat and posed in front of a picture, I took the snap and went to put my phone in my pocket but then he said "you should put it on your story! you know, for the guys to see!" I was a little hesitant as I worried what Jungkook might think but, then I realised that we were just friends and he was aware of that so I took my phone back out and posted the pictures on social media.

By 6pm we realised we had to go to the stadium and get ready for tonight's show so we sprinted there, and by sprinted, I mean hailed the nearest cab and got a ride there. But once we arrived we went for a quick sound check that the guys had already had and ran backstage to get started on hair and makeup.

The show went great once again, and for a second time as I ran offstage I seen Jungkook standing there, no smile on his face this time. We hadn't talked all day, he would usually text me or something but today I got nothing, seeing his face reminded me how much I missed him, even if that was only for merely a day.

I smile as I go to walk past him but he clasps my arm and sends me an intense glare that sliced right through my entire body, sending cold shivers down my spine. Then he speaks "I seen you today, with him. Someone obviously moves on fast." I was so insulted, he basically insinuated I was a whore without even having the slightest idea what he was talking about, this wasn't the soft happy jungkook I knew, he was , colder, so I guess I had to be too. "How could I move on from something that never even existed in the first place?" I yank my arm out of his touch and proceed to make my way backstage, hurt and heartbroken by his words that could have almost cut through me like a knife..