Spotlight -JK FF

7. Plan A

Chapter 7-
After that incident I grew a thicker skin and I guess I kinda put my guard up a little more, we were almost finished our US segment of the tour and everything was going considerably well, that is, except for the fact that me and jungkook hadn't spoken in almost three weeks.

Any time we had meetings with the other members or wished each other good luck before going on stage he hadn't so much as glanced at me. It hurt me but at this stage I was already broken enough. Me and Tae spent almost all of our time together, we were like siblings, and I knew jungkook didn't like that. But how was I supposed to stay away from him?! We were all on tour together for goodness sake. Anytime we'd go out for lunch or just so much as a walk together I'd always here him huff or scoff in the distance but I just learnt to ignore it.

Today marked our last day in the US, and for some reason Taehyung wanted to make it count..

T A E H Y U N G S  P O V

I knew Jungkook was hella pissed that I got to spent more time with y/n than he ever did. Little did he know that it was all part of the plan me and the guys had cooked up just days after their argument back in Korea. Y/N came to me after the show, she was sobbing for hours, and i consoled her as any best friend would, then, Jimin came to me and said that Jungkook had solemnly ranted about how he didn't like seeing her with other guys, especially his close friends, it hurt him, because he was madly in love with her.

That's when I got the idea, I call it 'operation cupid'. I went to the guys and told them what I thought we should do, the plan you ask?
Make y/n confess her love for Jungkook in a place where he can hear everything, that way he knows why she did what she did, and he understands her side of the story. The way that I do that? I have to make her believe that I want to be with her, then she'd be forced to let me down slowly through her confession, and boom! perfectly foolproof! I decided I should do it tonight, backstage, so wish me luck I guess..

J U N G K O O K S  P O V
Why was she with him and not with me? Am I really that unlovable? I mean sure he's handsome, and funny, and he's also a gentleman, but why can't she see that I'm so much better for her that he'll ever be? These are all questions I ask myself as I stand in the dressing room by the makeup section, staring at myself in the mirrored wall surrounded by bright bulbs of lights around its perimeter, catching every detail of my face in perfect hd.

It was 20 minutes before showtime so I had time to spare, that's when I hear some muffled conversation coming from the corridor outside, so I decide to pass some time and listen to the conversation unfold..

Y/N
I was walking up towards the stage and I saw Taehyung making his way down through the corridor so I smiled, then he stopped and placed his hand on my arm lightly and said "y/n, we need to talk." "Like now?" I asked bewildered "Yeah like right now."

He replies adamantly, I lean my head up against the wall and fold my arms as I send a nod his way, letting him know I was ready to listen to whatever he was to say next, "Well as you know, these past few weeks with one another have been so much fun, for me at least." I raise my eyebrows and laugh a little "Yeah? What about it?"

He looks down at the ground as he scratches the back of his neck lightly "You see, the thing is, I'm kinda, starting to like you a little more than I should y/n, and I really don't know how to deal with it. I don't know about you, but I was wondering if maybe the next time we spend time together, would you like to make a date out of it?" My eyes widen at his words and my mouth is subtly gaped open, enough to expose my bottom set of teeth.

I blink rapidly as I shake my head to try and take in what he'd just said to me, "Taehyung I-" I pause for a second "you're like a brother to me, I, I don't see you in that way, I don't really know what else to say" he sighs as he keeps his eyes on the concrete floor beneath us "it's because you're in love with someone else isn't it?" I fixate my eyes on the top of his head as they begin to water and I feel my heart sink to the pit of my stomach, he looks up at me and my teary eyes meet his, he knows. "please say it to my face so that I know it's real."

I swallow the dry lump in my throat as I try to hold back my sobs "I- I, I love him." He places one hand on the wall beside my head "you love who y/n. say it out loud. I need to hear it." He stares up at the ceiling as he sucks on his teeth "please just SAY IT!" I start off with a shout but it quietens as it concludes "I LOVE... Jungkook. I love Jungkook." A teardrop falls down my face as I whimper my statement out loud, finally admitting it to myself and the world the tortuous emotions I'd kept inside, I finally said what I'd been feeling all this time out loud.

He speaks as if he's exhausted, I felt awful "Then why can't you just be with him?! I don't get it y/n. I cant comprehend it." I look into his eyes once again and I just let it all out, "Tae, I want nothing more than to be with him. But I simply can't. Why? Because I don't wanna be just another girl chewed up and spat right back out again by the entertainment industry, I've seen it too many times to too many girls.

Once idols start dating your face is plastered all over the news worldwide, but they don't give a damn about your talent, your reputation, or any of the hard work you put in, they just care about their story, and their dirty money. Media pressure would push us apart within weeks, and I can't lose him, I won't lose him. Even seeing him everyday and not speaking is better than not seeing him at all. I know you don't understand but that's all I can give to you. I'm sorry" I rant through merciless sobs, Taehyung pulls me into a warm embrace and comforts me, he knows I'm in pain. Surprisingly though, he didn't experience as much heartache as I had anticipated, but he's a man after all, he's probably hurting on the inside, so I didn't pay too much attention.

After a few minutes he breaks the hug and wipes my tears away, luckily my makeup wasn't totally ruined, "thank god the mascara was waterproof" he jokes and I giggle at him. "Listen I have to go back down to my dressing room but they want you up there in 10 so you best stay here or else head on up alright?" I nod as I tap under my eyes so I don't ruin my base makeup and he continues his way backstage to his dressing room. I stand there for a moment, still leant up against the wall, attempting to collect my thoughts and regain my composure.

I then stand up straight and take a deep breath 'it's showtime' I whisper to myself as I go to make my way to the stage, as I walk down the corridor I hear a door swing open and a ray of light radiates off the wall beside me, immediately after I feel a strong hand grab my wrist and pull me into a random room, I heard the door close and as soon as that happened I was pushed up against the back of it, two hands landed either side of my head and my eyes travelled up to meet his, my breathing was heavy and rhythmically uneven, I was almost panting due to how fast the events had occurred, I managed to exhale a singular word, in barely even a whisper, the only thing that managed to come out was "Jungkook..."