* READ BOOK 1 SO YOU'RE NOT CONFUSED *
Da Sequel.
2 years have past since Quincy and Remembrance's split, and their paths have been set to cross once again.
Life has been good for Remembrance, she's finally gotten her life together, rebuilt her foun...
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It's been two years.. two whole years since the Quincy and I situation, if you will. We haven't spoken since, not a text, not a letter, definitely not a pop-up.. nothing. I thought moving away would help me move on but i was wrong.. because every time I look in my baby girl's eyes I see him. Every time I see her little face, I see him. I see him in everything she does and says, and it's killing me..
I often spent my nights watching her and admiring her little features as I reflect on the past two years of raising her without her father, tonight was no different. My mom didn't even know I had a daughter, nobody did, except my midwife, Christian and myself. He's been a big help, anything I needed for her, he helped out. He was such a blessing. But I wasn't capping when I said I was gonna go ghost on everyone, but maybe I overly glamorized the idea of how I would feel because all I ever felt for the past 24 months was guilt.
Rehab and therapy was a success though, I'm officially substance abuse free and schizophrenia free. I've overcome, accepted and moved past the death of my baby boy in a healthy way and have come to terms with the fact that it wasn't my fault and it was all out of my control. I also came to terms with my breakup with Quincy, I cannot make somebody love me, I cannot make somebody choose me.. I shouldn't have too. So I've let it go.. yes I miss him at times, yes I think about him.. but I will never tie my self worth to him ever again.
I shook my head prior to being shaken from my thoughts as I saw Ka'lani toss in her sleep and turn to face me.
Ka'lani
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"Mommy, why you not sleepin?" I heard her little voice ask in the darkness. It was almost as if she's grown a sixth sense to know when I'm awake and when I'm not.
"I'm just making sure you're sleeping good, babygirl." I said as I pressed a kiss on her little, chubby cheek. "Why aren't you sleeping?"
"My tummy monster growlin.." She said as she sat up to face me. "I have cereal, please?"
