I got into my car driving to Taehyung. It feels like the first day when I saw him, he was wearing black stockings that go up to his knees, and a white shirt with his poofy hair. All I remember from that day was that I was never going let him go, but I was stupid and cheated on him. If we do get back together, I promise I'll never let him go and plan on getting married to him.
I drive past our first date 'Jin's Diner.' he was so happy. I also remember he was so nervous that he told his friend to come stalk just so they know I wouldn't stand him up. That day was the most romantic day, and when he told me he was a little, my heart stop I fell even more in love with him. When he has fallen into the little space after we had intercourse it was adorable, he needed reassurance every moment, I told each time how wonderful it was. he was just perfect.
i finally arrived, it took a bit because i brought ice cream and pizza to show my kindness. he open up while wearing a creamy colored hoodie, his glasses and he just look overall comfortable, it felt like that day all over again. he let me in, i notice he change his living room "you change it." I said, he grab the bag of ice cream and sat down "yeah it needed a change, its pretty isn't it?" i only gave him a smile. i put the pizza on the coffee table and sat down next him waiting for him to speak first.
"why did you do it?" i knew this was one of his question, i prepare myself with this kinda one. "i don't know, and i know you heard this before, but look i never wanted to play with your heart, i never wanted to be those guys who used you, i wanted to be the one to marry you Taehyung. you don't know how bad i started to cry the moment you left my life
when I snap out and realize my faults. " he look down "who was she?" he ask me, his eyes never left me after he look up. "a girl, i don't know her name" i was ready to hear him yell at me " did you mean what you said, when you wrote that paragraph for our one year?"
it took me awhile to think about that post "yeah, 'imma keep you and hold you even if the world stops turning. i promise you I'll keep you smiling'" i started to cry even when the world stop i let go of him, i let to of my world "yeah but the other part 'in a whole crowd my hands will be interlock with yours and my eyes will always be on you.' did you mean it?" i heard him crying.
i grab his waist letting him cry on me "shhh of course i meant it. baby i was being a dick and cheated on the only person who gave me nothing, but his heart and i drop it as clumsy as i am i drop it. i know I'm not perfect i-i tried to be, for f-fuck sakes, ta-taehyung i miss you like crazy and i will never drop you, you hear me. never."
he look at me with tears in his eyes, i wipe them off his face, and brought his face closer to mine. "i promise i would never let you go. everytime i see you all I hear is bells, you know what that means to me. you're my life. look, feel my heart it only beats this fast for-" he kiss me and i felt electricity, and heard the bells get loud. "i love and miss you so much jeongguk, please shut up and kiss me and promise me you won't let me go" he held out his pinkie i lop it around with mine and kiss him.
finally i got him back.
edited: june 16, 2021
