Bruises|Jimin X BTS

Chapter 18

Jihyun's POV

Im at a motel for now looking through Jimin's phone so I can contact his friends about what had happpened.

*Jihyun texting JungKook*

Jihyun: "Hello this is Jimin's brother informing you that Jimin is currently in the hospital because he stabbed himself."

JungKook: "WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE STABBED HIMSELF?! AND SINCE WHEN DOES HE HAVE A BROTHER??"

Jihyun: "Our father told him to do it and he slit his neck and is in the ER and Jimin has always had a brother."

JungKook: "WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU STOP HIM?! DID YOU KNOW ABOUT HIM BEING ABUSED?!"

Jihyun: "Yes, I knew about him being abused. I abused him too because if I didn't my dad would've killed or disowned me. I didn't stop him because I didn't know what my dad told him to do."

JungKook: "WHAT TYPE OF BROTHER ARE YOU?! YOU ABUSED YOUR OWN BROTHER FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR LIFE!"

Jihyun: "I know I am such a bad brother. I understand I made unforgivable mistakes...."

JungKook: "You should've been the one to slit your neck."

I choked on a sob reading his texts, it really should have been me..

Jihyun: "I agree... It should've been me.. Sorry, I'll go now."

JungKook: "WAIT WAIT WAIT, what do you mean by "go" where are you going?"

Jihyun: "It should've been me. You're right, It really should have. Take care of my little brother for me please."

JungKook: "WAIT! No I'm sorry! Jimin is just really important to me... Please just don't do anything bad to yourself"

I read his text and sobbed.

"It should've been you all along Jihyun..." I said to myself.

JungKook: "Please respond, I'm sorry..."

Jihyun: "Promise me one thing, you will keep Jimin safe. And please, tell his other friends what happened to him and not me."

JungKook: "NO NO DONT GO PLEASE"

I put Jimin's phone down and reached in my pocket and pulled out a pocket knife.

"Jimin please be okay... I know I messed up your life forever. But please.... Don't remember me and forget about who I was and what I've done."

I took a deep breath and pressed the tip of the knife to my stomach.

I got flashbacks of the things I've done to Jimin.

I don't deserve another chance, I messed up too badly.

FLASHBACK *TRIGGER WARNING: RAPE*

"Jihyun can you go beat Jimin for me? He got a B+ on a test?" My father said.

"It doesn't feel right anymore dad.. A B+ is good grade." I said back.

"GO BEAT YOUR WORTHLESS LITTLE BROTHER JIHYUN!" My father shouted.

"No... I can't do it anymore dad.. He doesnt deserve this!" I raised my voice.

My father came towards me and pinned me against the wall.

"What was that?" He said, his face close to mine.

"Dad get off me please... I dont wanna hurt Jimin." I said struggling to get away from him.

My dad pressed his mouth against mine and I tried shoving him off but I was too week.

"Quit struggling you little slut or I'm doing twice as hard." My dad growled against my ear.

I broke down sobbing as my dad flipped me around and slammed me against the wall and slid my pants down.

"Dad please don't do this..." I said in between sobs.

"Shut you mouth slut." My dad said and I heard him unzipping his pants.

I started to struggle to get away again but he just pressed me more against the wall.

He covered my mouth as he shoved himself inside me with no mercy and I screamed.

"This is What happens when you don't obey your father. You hear me slut?!" My dad yelled, thrusting in and out of me roughly.

I sobbed as my dad fucked me raw. Praying that Jimin wouldn't come down the stairs, the last thing I want is Jimin seeing his older brother being raped by his own dad.

My dad kept fucking me senseless until he came inside me and I was sobbing.

"I hope you learned your lesson slut." My father said and slid out of me and zipped his pants.

I slid down the wall and sat on the floor, broken and sobbing.

My dad left me alone there. And went to beat Jimin.

I got up and limped to the bathroom, crying from pain and the sounds of my little brother screaming and crying.

No matter how hard I scrubbed the inside of my thighs, the feeling of being dirty never went away.

END OF FLASHBACK

I was standing in the middle of the room with a knife held up to my stomach while sobbing remembering that memory. I heard all the voices telling me to do it, to just end myself.

"Im such a bad brother.." I said to myself while sobbing.

I took a deep breath and almost pressed the knife into my stomach  but then I heard Jimin's phone ringing, someone was calling him.. 

I held onto my pocket knife and walked to Jimin's phone and saw JungKook's name on the screen. Why would he be calling Jimin if he knows I'm the one who has his phone...?

I picked up Jimin's phone and answered. 

"Hello...?" I said in a quiet, broken voice.

"Don't do anything bad to yourself please, Im so sorry for what I said over text, Im just a shocked.." He said.

"YOU'RE GOING THROUGH A LOT?!" I yelled.

"I ABUSED MY BROTHER FOR YEARS BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANNA GET HURT. ONLY TO LEAD TO HIM SLITTING HIS THROAT AND THEN I GET TOLD THAT IM A BAD BROTHER AND IT SHOULD'VE BEEN ME TO SLIT MY THROAT!" I yelled, tears streaming from my eyes.

"I'm so sorry..." JungKook said.

"Sorry isn't gonna stop me from killing myself, goodbye." I said and almost hung up but JungKook said something.

"Don't leave this world, Jimin was my boyfriend and I got told he slit his throat. I didn't mean to be an inconsiderate asshole to you." JungKook said.

"Im such a bad brother I didn't even know my brother was dating someone let alone know he was gay." I said.

"And if you stay alive you can get to know your brother, you can restart." JungKook said.

"I don't deserve another chance from all the things I've done." I said.

"Everyone deserves a second chance." JungKook said.

"I don't have anyone though, my dad is in jail, Im not bringing up my mother and my brother might be dead..." I said crying.

"Might be dead. Doesn't mean he is dead." JungKook said.

"He won't ever forgive me for what I put him through." I said.

"Give him time, and we will help him." JungKook said.

"Fine.." I said.