I'd see him post things on Facebook, and I'd hear people talk about him. Slowly, I got feelings for him. I didn't tell anyone, in fear that they might get mad at me. I hid those feelings for a LONG time. Almost three months before I decided to "try" and tell him. I've never really told anyone how I felt about how I felt about them, and the ONLY reason I was about to tell Mark was because he liked my truth is status. I told him, "truth is, I used to like you... But yeah... No."
I was so stupid that day to ever say that. I truly did still like him but I was afraid of being denied. I didn't know how to tell anyone that I liked them. I was scared for him to tell me he didn't like me. So, he said thanks and we didn't talk again. I had just ruined my chance and I didn't realize it until after.
I was stupid. I had just made the biggest mistake of my life, and I didn't realize it until later a couple months down the road. I didn't know what I did that day. That day was probably one of the stupidest days I've ever had. My head must not have been on straight. I can't believe that after three months of liking him I told him I didn't like him anymore...
