I am sorry Kota (One Shot)

I am sorry Kota

  Hikaru opens his eyes. His head is aching intensely. He feels giddy and nauseous. His body is weak. The last thing he remembers is falling in the bathroom. Hikaru then looks around. He is in his room, with dim light coming from the small lamp near his bedside table. He is wearing his pink pyjama, and cosily covered with the dark blue blanket. A pink branula is set on his right hand.   

Who put me here? 

 Hikaru looks at the clock. It's reaching 11pm, 31st January 2019. 

  "Yabai!!! I'm late!!!!" Hikaru suddenly remembers about his date. He was supposed to meet Yabu at 6pm today, to celebrate Yabu's birthday. 

  But the moment Hikaru's left foot touch the floor, his headache become more intense. He feels like his surrounding is spinning fast. His eyes become blurry, and his body becomes unstable.   

  Hikaru tries to stabilize himself, but he fails. Before he knows he has fell onto the floor, making a loud sound. His body bends, trying to cope with the throbbing headache. His head is now touching his knees, and he is clenching his teeth.  

  "Hika! Are you all right????" Hikaru hears a very familiar voice yelling from the kitchen. Soon after footsteps follow. 

  "Oh God!!!" the voice sounds shock, and immediately Hikaru's body is being lifted up and placed on the bed again.   

  "Kota... is that you?" Hikaru asks in weak voice. 

  "Yes honey, it's me," Yabu gently lays Hikaru's head on the pillow. "Are you hurt?" he is now carefully checking Hikaru's body, looking for any injury.   

  Hikaru slowly opens his eyes again. Right in front of him now is his lover, his best friend and his soul- Yabu Kota. Hikaru couldn't hold his tears anymore, he is now sobbing like a child.   

  "What's wrong Hika? It's your head is it? Wait, I'll get you some medicine!"  

  Yabu was about to stand but Hikaru quickly grabs his hand, stopping him from leaving. He slowly sits, and then pulls Yabu towards him- burying himself in Yabu's warm embraces.   

  "Don't leave me alone..." 

  Yabu startles seeing Hikaru in tears. He gently strokes Hikaru's hair, hoping it would calm the boy. "Daijyobu... I'm not going anywhere."   

  Hikaru breaks the hug. He is now looking direct at his boyfriend's eyes. "I'm sorry... I am useless... I'm sorry Kota..."  

  "Shhhhh..." Yabu brings Hikaru back to his arms. "There's nothing to be sorry about."

  "It's your birthday... your special day... but I spoiled it..."  

  "That's not true, Hika. It's just a birthday. We can celebrate at other time. Don't worry about it."  

  "I'm sorry I am sick... I'm sorry.... I'm sorry..." Hikaru keeps repeating himself.   

  Yabu hates this the most. He hates when Hikaru being apologetic for no reason. He hates when Hikaru keeps blaming himself for things that is out of their control.   

  And the one thing he hates the most, is when Hikaru tries to please everyone and gets himself stressed out.   

  Hikaru is a perfectionist, Yabu knows that. The boy will plan things months ahead, and keeps checking as the date nearing- be it for personal matters or JUMP related activities. But one thing Hikaru failed to pay attention to is his health. Yabu notices how thin Hikaru has become.