The Queen in Hell

Where Were you?

"Adeline" i take no time with his words and I turn on my heel going straight into my room and slamming the door, tears fill my eyes and the pain, the sorrow, the anger...all of it comes back from the past few months and I feel might implode!

Why was he here? What does he want?! I can't even look at him without seeing my father and without feeling empty and alone! All he had to do was help me get through it, that's literally all he had to do and he couldn't! He couldn't manage the smallest of tasks, of patting my shoulder or saying a word or two to me! No instead he left me!

The door opens and in he comes closing the door behind him. He looks good, as usual his tall, dark and mysterious looks as handsome as Always. He hasn't changed much, his hair is a bit longer and his 5 o clock shadow is new but besides that his muscles seem intact as I can see from his stupid rolled up dress shirt and surprisingly good looking suspenders. I scowl and turn around angry. I refuse to look at him and I don't want to argue or speak.

I hate him, no matter how good he looks or whatever he says.
"Adeline" I cross my arms my knees week from anger and my palms sweating.

"Stop being so childish and turn around" he demands and this is when I do! Oh hell yeah i did! I'm not gonna let him try and make me look like an idiot! This is his fault and he has to know it!

"Excuse me?" I question my voice cracking a bit as I turn on my heel to face him. Our eyes meet and I stare into his red ones trying to keep my composure.
"How dare you come back here?! How dare you send spies?! You come here thinking it's okay that you left me thinking it's okay that you hurt me! How dare you?! After what I sacrificed for you! After my father-" my voice cracks as I mention him but I try to continue strong,

"After my father died for you! And what did it bring you! Nothing but a reason to get rid of me! I was alone! Alone and suffering! And now you bring along some fake, to buy me coffee and smile at me! Who are you? Do you think you own everything and everyone? You think you get to harm whoever you like and it doesn't matter?" I stop for emphasis! As if he would ever admit he was wrong but he does move to say a word but I cut him off, I'm not done yet!

"And now you show up, let me guess you were in the area and decided it was convenient!" I have to stop myself before I explode and this gives him time to speak.
"Adeline, your stubborn and proud and you'll never listen when I tell you it was for your own good that you'd stay here, where you would be safe" his face is impassive as if trying to be nonchalant as I yell at him. Safe? His version of safe was what happened to me last night? A block lodges in my throat as I think of last night!

"Safe! Ha! You call that safe, did you even see what they did to me! How they touched me?!" I yell subconsciously wrapping my arms around myself. I'm not cold but the chills won't leave my body and I feel tears drop down my cheeks. They could have done worst if I wasn't saved. 

I look up at him his eyes catching mine and I see something like anger flare up but it's mixed with concern, and I never thought I'd see that emotion cross his face.
"Where were you? When his hands were on me? Why weren't you there?!" I yell my sobs choking me as I wipe angrily at my tears.

But he says nothing...he just walks straight up to me and places a hand on my back pushing me towards him and placing a kiss on my forehead. He lingers there for a moment and every ounce of me wants to kick him, scream at him and hurt him but I can't cause his warmth weakens me.

He pulls back and walks out of the room my heart aching for him to come back so that I can kick his ass! I sit down on the bed and sob, I don't know what else to do... so I sob until I fall back asleep..

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When I open my eyes it's been an hour and I stand up making my way to the door.. I need breakfast and then I need a well deserved shower. I go out of my room only to find Anthony and nick sitting and playing cards. Why are they still here?

"Oh Adeline your awake!" Anthony exclaims as I make my way over to my coffee machine.
"Yeah, and you guys are still here" I say sitting and plopping an Oreo in my mouth.
"Yes well I remember his orders were, "stay here, make sure nothing happens or I'll rip your dicks off and then something about murder, and killing someone" nick says nonchalantly while placing down a card. Sounds like him.

"Hmm well you don't have to stay here you know!" I say sounding a bit bitter and then regretting it as Anthony feigns an ouch.

"I'm sorry I just mean thank you for saving me and protecting me blah blah blah you can stay as long as you like!" I say chuckling.
"Oh we didn't save you" nick exclaims stealing an Oreo from my hand.
"Oh really?"

"Yeah I was trying to tell you earlier before you went all Hail Mary! But it was Lorenzo sooo" Anthony says placing another card down. He saved me? Why didn't he say so?? I was yelling at him and he didn't mention it! Ugh he's so annoying! But doesn't change what happened!

"Okay well I'm going to go shower, heaven knows I need it!" I yell making my way to the bathroom feeling terrible, I don't know what to do now and I can't let him slither back into my life like this,

I have to just work on getting myself safe..