She had other friends and he
didn't, she had
other responsibilites and
expectations to live up to and
in his way, he did too, he
spent more nights thinking about his
biology course than
he ever spent thinking of her,
he only wanted her
smile when it could give him his own
he was
drowning in his own sea of depression
at war with himself.
She started to take more
iron supplements
but she only ever got more tired
and it was almost like
she was being
posioned?
drowned?
It was more like
suffocation than anything
she could imagine and it was
mostly her,
but him too,
she noticed that it hurt when she missed him -
it physically
hurt and she didn't know
love didn't feel that way
she didn't know the difference between
fear and relief
vs.
missing and loving
she just really
didn't know.
