His laughter echoes off the walls
Leaving me to wallow in self hatred alone
His smiles light up the room yet cannot destroy the darkness within my mind
Take care of him, be good to him, protect him mother says
Her precious boy
I remember a time before him
Happiness and joy beyond compare
Loving a world that I believed was good
Scaling trees and roaming free
Then it all change nine short years ago
I wanted a sister, but instead I got him
I was proud to be a big sister till I grew older
My life has been utter turmoil ever since
Shattered glass among broken dreams
The joy I once held close faded away
Everything had to revolve around him
Thus ending my childhood playtime
Forced to grow up
To take charge of my life
Divided by two families
Each holding a piece of my heart
Trapped in a growing body and lost in a child's mind
One family sees one side and the other sees the second
Why must I parade as something I'm not?
Why can't I be me?
Instead of five faced mess
Freedom is suppose to increase with age
But I saw no change
It all started with one choice
And it was him over me
