There's but one mistake I have remorse for.
Some may know, and others don't.
Racing through my mind and hoping for more.
But instead I slayed the little boy who had hope.
You wanted honesty and I didn't give,
I hid away in refrain of my sin.
Letting the space between tear me away.
As if there could be another chance some day.
I know what I lost but I have a numbing sense over my mind.
As a man I have to live into the bullshit that keeps me in line.
No, I should not have up and left what I thought would've been my life.
For some three month period of pain just to have the same feelings set the price.
So much I could have done and had, my life was made I just wasn't that glad.
Maybe I expressed too much and thought about things that didn't matter.
Now I look into the mirror, and all I see are the eyes of my dad.
I so do wish I set out for the life I will never have.
You gave me time after to go back,
A brief period of forgiveness, that could've kept this in tact.
Oh yes how I wish I could've been strong and stayed.
But I'm an asshole now. Will never have it again.. okay..
