The grass always looked greener
If I turned to the right
But I’ve never liked green much
Cause the grass here dies at night
And in the day the sun
Illuminates the skies
With a dying beauty I don’t know
Cause I always close my eyes
Far they claim to feel no pain
A Christmas card smile posed
A pain that I ignore
Because still my eyes are closed
But the darkness of sealed lids
Seems not to stop them when they pore
For the first time my cheeks feel wet
Though I’ve never wanted more
And I’ve never cried before
No I’ve never cried before
I’ve never cried before
I’ve never cried like this before
When I was young I asked
How change would take me as I grew
But answers never came to me
Cause no one ever knew
A simple door of opportunity
With every challenge beginning to close
Even more with not knowing anything
And having never had I suppose
But who can tell me not to feel
When I already feel so small
The world is shaking harder now
I think only about the fall
Because I walked those paths alone
Even in direction scared and unsure
With just a false notion that I’m fine
Really never wanting more
But I’ve never cried before
No I’ve never cried before
And I’ve never cried before
I’ve never cried like this before
“Distance,” I’ve been told
“Can mend a broken heart”
Even so we can know pain
Until the day we fall apart
I can do this part myself
I swear it on a star
If brokeness can be repaired
Then I can get that far
I know I’ve never wanted anything
But I can want and I want this now
Some kind of means to start moving
Though in any case I don’t know how
My name’s engraved in the skyline here
A line that’s so unsure
They say I’ve overstayed my welcome
Because I’ve never wanted more
And I’ve never cried before
No I’ve never cried before
I’ve never cried before
I’ve never cried like this before
