Claiming Season

Chapter 27

and if you don't like me, as I do you; I understand. because who would really choose a daisy, in a field of roses? -J.M

Chelsea's P.O.V

I walked out of the room leaving Niall sound asleep. I opened the library door and sat on the couch. I sighed as I looked down at my tighs.

"You're an idiot for cutting your tighs you dick." I told myself.

I traced the scars over and over again. I heard a knock on the door and kept playing with the scars. I watched as Harry walked up to me with sweats on showing his v-line. He rolled a chair up infront of me and sat.

"You okay?" He asked.

"Yeah." I lied.

"Chelsea I've known you all my life you're not okay."

"Harry. It's just that I don't feel like I can talk to Niall about my cutting. It's not that I don't trust him. Shit I trust him with my life. But it's just that I don't want the person I love to carry a burden because of me." I sighed.

"But you can trust me?" He asked.

"Yeah. You were the one who caught me remember? And you know I love you Harry. You, Bryce and the boys have been part of my life. You guys and my family saved me once."

"Chelsea you need to talk to Niall about this. He knows that I have feelings for you and he still let's me live with you guys because he knows you need me. But you know I won't always be here. It pains me to think I'll be away from you when I fucking love you but Niall and you love eachother and are going to have kids and I won't be able to do shit about my feelings." Harry pulled on his curls.

"Harry you know we can't be together." I sighed.

"I know."

"You know I love you Harry. But what I feel for Niall it's, it's just something I really can't explain. Like I love you like a brother. And I know you're going to find someone who loves you."

"Don't say that. I know you're trying to save me from some pain but don't. Okay. Don't." Harry was beginning to get frustrated.

"I'm sorry." I got up and hugged him.

He kissed my forehead and whispered in my ear, "I'll always love you. Don't ever forget that."

He walked out of the room leaving me alone once again.

I silently sat with my knees on my chest reading The Fault in Our Stars. I've read it before but I just really enjoy that book. I quietly got out of my comfortable position and walked toward a desk that was by one of the windows. I started to clean up but something made out of letter caught my attention.

I skimmed through what I assumed was a leather journal and read , "I fear that if I let her be a part of me, my darkness will consume her." I kept reading confused at what Niall had writen.

"Chelsea what are you doing?" Niall scared me.

Good thing I had mail in my hand to hide the fact I was reading his journal.

"Cleaning up." I smiled.

"It's okay. Let's go back to bed." He whined.

I kept cleaning and Niall walked up behind me. He warped his hands around my waist. I turned to him smiled and said, "Niall would you ever tell me if something was wrong? Would you trust me?"

"Of course I would Chelsea. I love and trust you more than I trusted anyone before. Why what's wrong?" He asked.

"Nothing." I pecked him on the lips.