Inside a Broken Mind

The Shelf

A person is a shelf full of books. With each step not taken, we don't flip a page but open another.

People who know me in real life will tell you of my character as a careless and goofy person. But the people who really know me will tell you that I tend to hold on to things a lot. And most of the time those are the things that do not good to me; Comic books, novels, anime. I'm into nerdy stuff so I guess that makes me a nerd.

I don't like to break the flow. A better example would be a novel. If I'm reading a novel and suddenly realise that there's a whole chapter missing, I would lose my mind. I can't close the book because I wanna complete it but I can't continue because of the missing chapter.

This is both literally and metaphorically a real life situation. Now, what most people in this situation would do is they would look for solutions like skipping the chapter or taking up another book or stop reading whole together. What I do is I happen to hold on to it. I know doing that won't get me the chapter or the time I lost reading until the missing chapter but that's just how I am.

Metaphorically, about half a year ago, I found this really nice looking book with a beautiful cover. I added it to the shelf hoping to read it some day. But I was scared to read as you never know how the story is gonna turn out.

So recently, I decided to open the book and finally read it. I covered the first few chapters and it was so far so good. After the end of and interesting chapter, when I flipped the page, I found a blank. I flipped again and found another blank. And on and on until I found 25 blank pages. After the 25, the story continued but I didn't. I stopped reading. I couldn't continue without knowing what happened during the blank pages.

It is one of the most unique book so there was absolutely no way to figure out what had happened in between. Not until the author of the book fills me in with the missing story.

I have a big shelf and I could just pick up another book but my tendency to hold on has chained me. Hopefully the author of the unique book reads this and finds the message hidden within the metaphors.

- Kais Ahora
Wednesday
20/02/19