Uzi's, GLOCKS and M16's

My inter thoughts

Is it strange for a girl to love m16's , glock 40s, uzi's chanel bags , long bundles of weave , lip gloss ,Mac and Maybelline! It's is scary ? Did you just judge me ?
Isn't it hard enough trying to excel at being a Black women Let alone a Black male am I catching your attention?
I love pistols and Rifles because some people see them as power or safety ; I see them as a race I see them as strong and deadly then I think maybe I can be strong and deadly strong because isn't black women supposed to be strong ?
Strong because I don't wanna be a welfare mom , strong because pause maybe strong because i can't imagine or see failure.
DEADLY because if you live by the gun then you die by the gun.
deadly because when you from da hood young black boys and girls are just trying to make a dollar out of 15 cent.
deadly because poor kids and Poverty is real. Let's not forget.
deadly because baby's having babies and us as a culture get use to failing.
Deadly because I wanna be the next Kelly Maria Kashell Hunt to make a difference and
deadly because you not hearing me,
I wanna become somebody's wife and I want my children to inherit more than a pistol to they head ,
more than being scared of law enforcement more than , knowing all the lyrics to rap songs and can nearly read , more than having 2 strikes against him for being a black male, going to jail and smoking  weed ,
or just a black piece of meat with thick thighs and pearly white teeth and long black curly weave maybe I can be strong and deadly and actually succeed maybe I can be strong and deadly and fight my Anxiety, beat anything that comes my way!
Strong and deadly  that I can remember every day I'm pretty or just maybe strong and deadly and one day someone will salute me and tell me I'm winning .