For Ever. A Definite NO

How It All Started

After moving to a new home,after the death of my father, I wanted to go somewhere familiar with familiar faces, it was all fun while I was there with my cousins having a nice time, it all had to end though.
Getting ready to come back home as school was about to resume and I was in a boarding school.
I was at the bus stop,when a friend of mine,and a boyfriend to my sister insisted  I should wait for one of his friend/ mentor who was going same way, somehow, I felt very unsettled with the idea,my sister Maureen and Faith began to laugh at me putting it off as my fear of being alone with the opposite sex, they all laughed it off. But the feeling remained, and this friend Abel had to explain his relationship with the man to me , telling me he was a seminarian, before i agreed to go with.
Once he arrived, on our way going, I realized that unease i felt was increasing as the man was drunk and driving, having only realised that he was drunk, I was too scared to tell him I wanted to drop from the car.
When you are born here in Africa, especially my country Nigeria,one thing was certain, you will not talk back at your senior, or challenge one, you must be respectful always to one, if only my young mind had allowed me challenge him, if only my mind had allowed me to face him and ask him to stop driving, but it all boils down to if only.... I was so scared and just praying to God to help us reach safely to our destination, while they we were almost there,i was already Happy that nothing bad happened,about 15min. More to reach my stop, the car loosed control, swerving to the other lane almost colliding with an incoming vehicle, somehow the other cars went the other way and our car also the other way, the car didn't stop even with all the ridges in the farmland around the community, i was screaming my head, thinking, is this the end? Will i see my family again? Can i do anything to help herself in this situation? I was almost going to open the door to jump out of the moving vehicle,but the man held my hand back, telling me not to, I could just imagine all the movies I have watched and seen accidents like this taking place, but never saw nor imagined myself ever being involved in one, but this right now was not a dream but my reality. The car kept going in all directions,here I was sitting in the passenger sit with out my seatbelt on, cause I was debating on the best approach to ask him nicely to drop me, so I could catch a bus. I just decided to put my hand by the door so when I find a grassy land , I'll just open the door and jump or fly out of the moving vehicle, but I never got to do that, I sat like that thinking why did I to insist on going back today, I used to think that bad things was not suppose to happen to people more than once or twice, and I have had my share of that happening, so why was this happening to me?
In the midst of it all, I  finally was brought back to my senses when the car  collided with a brick wall that has been there for God knows how long, cause there were no other houses in the area except that wall. On collision with the wall, i felt very cold from tip of my head to the sole of my feet, and everything went blank...