alone | grethan

chpt 1.

ethan.
[ friday ]

the rain taps gently against my window as i stare out into the streets, staring at the lights flickering on and off. i start to doze off but i get woken up by my mom storming in to my room.
i shake myself up and look at her in fear. shes been drinking again. "m-mom?.." i stare at her waiting for a response.

"out. now." she slurs while grabbing my bags and throwing them onto my bed. my hands begin to shake, my heart starts to pick up the pace beating faster. "what..? mom w-what are you-" i say gently and slowly beginning to cry in fear but soon after i get cut off by her screaming.

"GET OUT! GET OUT! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE! IM SICK OF THIS. YOURE NO LONGER WELCOME HERE AND YOU SURE AS HELL ARENT MY SON. GET THE FUCK OUT NOW!" she screams at me whilst rummaging through my clothes, throwing them into my bags. i jump each time she throws more and more clothes into the bags.

i start to sob. "n-no.. no! no p-please mom no!" i crawl over to her gripping onto her side as tight as i can. "p-please!!" i repeat over and over. i start to scream as she tries to shove me off of her.

"GET OFF ME ETHAN. GET OUT NOW. YOU STUPID LITTLE WORTHLESS BITCH! YOU MEANT NOTHING TO ME AND YOU NEVER WILL. I NEVER WANTED YOU." she shoots verbal words at me. once she got me off of her, she starts hitting me, still screaming at me.

"you d- you dont mean it! mom pl-please no! don't do this." i stand in the center of the room screaming at her as she grabs the packed bags and starts shoving me down the stairs. i try lean back to try stop her from pushing me towards the door but nothing seems to work.
i start to cry even louder as she opens up the door.

before she shoved me out she grabs my hair and pulls me back. she leans into my ear and whispers "i'm no longer your mother. you aren't my son. good luck out there." she slightly laughs. i turn around to face her trying to grab onto her arm, but i feel a sudden force push against my stomach. i slowly fall onto my back, my head colliding onto the concrete. i feel water drip onto me, i hear the door slam shut and the clicking sound, signalling that she locked the door.

i sit up almost immediately. i sprint towards the door trying to open it, panicking.
"mom please! don't do this! let me in!.... hello? mom are you there?! please dont go! please don't leave me!" i choke on my sobs.

"no no no! this cant be real." i begin to hit my head over and over. "wake up.. wake up! WAKE UP!" i start to scream, realising this wasn't a dream. this was real.

[ 2 hours later. ]

"MOM PLEASE LET ME IN. I PROMISE ILL BE GOOD. JUST LET ME IN!" soaked in the water i begin to shiver i start screaming running around tapping on the windows, still trying to get her attention.
i continue to wipe the tears, so i can see a bit better.

*CAR ENGINE STARTS*

i hear moms car start and its coming from the garage. i run to the front smiling, thanking mom over and over. "thank you mom! i'm so sorry for wh-" all of a sudden mom speeds onto the road. my stomach turns as i watch.

tears slowly start to swell up in my eyes again. i grab my bags trying to run towards the car in fear. "mom please stop this! dont leave me!" i start to cry, trying to keep up with the car and grab onto the car door handle and open it.

as soon as i was about to grab onto the door handle, she picks up the pace and presses her foot all the way down onto the pedal. the car speeds off into city. i fall down almost immediately. i gasp for air, till a sudden jolt runs through me. i get back up and start running after the car. "PLEASE MOM WHATS WRONG WITH ME? IM SORRY" i scream trying to catch up but knowing it's not enough. i continue to run till my legs give out and i crash onto the ground. i roll over sobbing as i watch the car speed off, slowly getting further and further away from me. i sit up slowly drenched in water. sobbing softly realising shes not coming back.

i start to cry even louder. i'm alone.
i slowly get chills up my body and my breathing starts to pick up, my heart pounds against my chest. my ears start to ring. i realise that i'm having a panic attack. i see an alley way thinking it would be a good place to cover myself from the rain. i pick up my bags, trying to control my breathing. "1 2 3 breathe in. 1 2 3 breathe out." i slowly start to calm down. i crawl next to a dumpster and lean against the metal is a wall to keep me up.

the breathing technique stops working once i realise. i am alone. the fear slowly takes over my body and i roll up into a ball, sobbing as it echoes through the alley way. i start to panic even more realising my mother left me. i have no one.

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CHPT 1. - COMPLETE!
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