Harry Potter's Older Sister

Chapter 9

Sirina's POV

Last night was the full moon and I am still sore, however, I can tell that dad is upset. I go down to the kitchen and see him staring into a cup of coffee. I walk up to him and him seems lost in thought. I sit down and try to get his attention, but I have a feeling that he is ignoring me on purpose.

"Dad, are you okay"

"Sirina, yeah, I was just thinking"

"About what"

"What happened in the forest, but also what happened that lead up to it"

"Dad, I already forgave you for that, even though I didn't say it out loud"

"How can you forgive me, after what I said"

"Because, you family, and you didn't mean to"

"Sirina, I can't forgive myself for what happened, if I had watched what I said, you wouldn't have become a wolf"

What he said, I really took to heart. I know that he didn't mean to hurt my feelings, I just wish I hadn't had run off into the forest. If I hadn't then dad wouldn't be blaming himself. So I decide to go up to my room and lock myself in.

Harry's POV

     I saw Sirina walk by, up to her room. I can tell that she is upset because she locked the door. I decide to talk to dad to find out what happened exactly. When I go down there I see him crying, something I have never seen before in my life. That would be because of what happened with the Dursleys.

"Dad, are you okay"

"....."

I could tell that he needed something to calm him down. I just hope that I can help him. I decide to make tea for him and hope it will calm him down enough to talk to me.

"Dad, what happened with Sirina"

"I feel like this is my fault. Sirina is hurt and if I had said something different then we wouldn't be in this situation"

"It's not your fault dad"

"It is though, if I hadn't said what I did, then she would be hurt"

This is not working, he is still upset. I decide to go up to Sirina's room and see how she is. It hurts to see my family blaming each other. Dad is blaming himself while Sirina is blaming herself. I just hope that neither one of them ends up trying to hurt themselves.

Sirina's POV

I can tell that dad is upset, but it's my fault that I ended up in this situation. I lean against the door and pull my knees to my chest. I try to keep it together, however, I can't. Sobs rack through me and I collapse on the floor and I hear the door open. I feel fear run through me because of what happened at the Flemmings.

"Sirina, it's okay, it's me, Harry, just breathe"

I try to do as he says, however, I can't seem to calm down. I carefully open my eyes and see that Harry is sitting right next to me. Even if I try to calm down my breathing, I will still be in a panic attack. The only one that can calm me down from a panic attack is dad.

"Dad, help, panic attack"

"Sirina, I'm coming, try to calm down, your okay"

"I can't, I need personal contact, you know that"

Snape's POV

I can tell that Sirina needs me, so I pull myself together and run up the stairs into her room. I see her in a ball with Harry trying to calm her down. However, it isn't working because of her past. I pull her toward me and whisper sweet things into her ear while rocking her. I feel her breathing even out and look down and see that she has fallen asleep.

"Dad, how did you do that, I was sitting with her for about thirty minutes trying to calm her down"

"Sirina had a very bad upbringing, so certain things will make her go into a panic attack. The only way to calm her is to hold her and let her know everything is okay"

"Dad, I am sorry about earlier, I was worried, about both of you"

"It's alright, son, I should have known not to blame myself or Sirina. I just hope she can forgive me"

"She already did dad, this morning"

After that talk, I laid Sirina down in her bed and went back downstairs. I decided to grab a cup of tea to calm me down. I saw Harry doing the dishes and wanted to talk to him about it, however, I know he'll tell me in his own time. For now, I just want to be able to give my kids the love that they deserve or didn't even get.