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I'm happier without you

Ashley and I decided to just skip class today since I was stressed due to Justin being there. Ashley and I immediately went to my therapists office and we talked about thanksgiving break and how Ashley and I are currently dating and that boys are ass holes. I had a doctors appointment to so Ashley took me to that, the doctor asked where Justin was and once again I told him that we're taking a break and blah blah blah... after those appointments Ashley and I went back to our dorm and watched MTV. Ashley, did you tell Austin that your dating me and how did he react? Lindsay asked. Yeah I told Austin he was actually happy for me to express my sexuality. That's good I wish I knew how to tell people that I'm turning into a damn lesbian Lindsay sighed. Don't worry babe your mom knows everyone knows I just don't want you and Justin to be together he damages you babe I want to be apart of your life for better Lindsay so will you go out... yes Ashley a thousand times yes baby girl Lindsay said kissing Ashley sexually. Has Justin got in contact with you today or your professor? Ashley asked. Justin texted me that he wanted to talk tomorrow but idk if I should see him... I honestly think you should see him hear him out you know maybe he didn't mean what he said when we were back home you know babe? Yeah I guess I'm going to go sleep on it baby I need time oh and my professor asked me if I needed anything and I told him some new friends and maybe a break from college, he told me he was going ask my counselor if I could take some time off for a couple of months it probably wouldn't happen though since no one knows I'm really struggling. I woke up the next day put on a pair of sweats and a Frostburg shirt and met Justin at Starbucks for coffee and he said he had something to tell me. Hey Lindsay Justin said. So why did you want to meet up? I thought you hated me Lindsay exclaimed. Lindsay I'm sorry about what happened back home and me throwing knifes and almost ruining our relationship I really want to be there for the baby and you so so much... Justin sheds  a tear... Justin, you called me a whore and showed me a different side of you I didn't like, what if we fought around Caroline, Justin my father wasn't there for me and I don't want my daughter to go through the same shit I went through!!!! Lindsay left pissed and Justin finally understood what Lindsay was going through. Justin texted Lindsay some hateful things....
Justin: Lindsay I didn't know that side of you why do you hate me?
Lindsay: YOU CALLED ME A WHORE and said you weren't going to be there for Caroline
Justin: I WANT TO BE THERE FOR BOTH OF YOU GUYS GOD DAMNIT
Lindsay started crying and Ashley decided to email counselors explaining there situation to not stay there anymore.... The next morning the counselors agreed that college was way to much for Lindsay and Ashley they decided to go home and think.. Lindsay left Frostburg with no regrets she was happy to be home with her mom. Honey I'm sorry college wasn't going well for you, I thought Justin was a trustworthy guy but he isn't... it's ok mom I'm going to go to my room and lay down ok? I love you. Lindsay went up to her bedroom and layed down. Four hours later Lindsay wakes up and decides to go to Ashely's. Babe, I have sad news Ashley said concerned... Oh no what happened? Lindsay asked pacing... Austin passed away this morning, he overdosed and didn't make it... Ashely I'm so sorry Lindsay exclaimed. Lindsay it's ok I didn't know that he was into drugs but the funeral is two weeks away babe I don't know if I should tell Justin..... Babe Justin texted me about it he seems hurt and I think he's feeling fucked up Lindsay said. I called Justin, he was crying and he was at a park smoking the pain away I didn't knew he smoked weed maybe that was before we met Lindsay thought to herself. Lindsay, I'll call you tomorrow but there's going to be a chance, I heard a gunshot and Lindsay got scared and told Ashely to call 911. Minutes passed and an ambulance came and took Justin to the ER. I'm worried sick about him, Lindsay said what am I going to do?