Tangled love and LGBTQ story

Accidents are not okay

So I woke up in axels arms with a serious headache and realized I was caught in a hangover. I smelled aweful and realized I had had sex with axel the night before I was drinking my mix of alchahol wich was rum red wine scotch and a lot of liquor. I had to leave for work soon. I head to work knowing it's not good keeping my mafia gang secret away from axel but it's for the best and she will be hurt and I don't want to lose her. I head to our hideout by the doc in forty ninth street .there were strippers on poles and drunk guys yelling at them hoping to end up getting layed tonight. I walk over to the bar where my crew is and my crew is me jay,Vicky,Bree,city,and Lou.
We're all gay it's just normal for us.
" we've been getting threats to out us"
"We can't risk going to jail for murder and people will know"
I realize axel doesn't know I'm in a gang and if she finds out she's leave me.
"Axel can't know I'm in a gang she'll leave me for good and she can't live alone being a wolf hybrid"
Well "tell her"everyone goes
"I CANT I LOBE HER MORE THAN MYSELF AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO KEEP HER OUT IF HARM" and I bang on the glass table making it shatter and my head is bursting into flames with aching feeling from my hangover
Everyone looked at me and it wasn't because of what I'd done it was because of what was in t.b all of our pictures i quickly turn the channel and it's on every one of them. "OH NO AXEL" I run out hopping in my motor bike screaming and praying she'd be there when I get back.
I slam the door open and I don't see her anywhere she's. Lynn the house and some of her clothes are gone . Her toothbrush was packed and there was only few things of hers left she was already gone.
I get mad and turn into a wolf sniffing for her scent I found her clothes in a tent but I don't see her I follow the scent more and see her curled up in a tree with a knife and before I could get over their she slit her wrist.
I run over and see she left a not I read it aloud
" jay I am very disappointed you didn't tell me but I see why. You were eager to tell me but now I realize that I can save you from misery I am leaving the world knowing you deserve so much better so I did this to show I love you. I do and you mean the world to me and I hope you realize that I am nothing"
I sit there and cry for a little bit but get tired of seeing her in this state and I hijack a car and lit her in the back I drive recklessly for the way home bf park a few house down so no one will think it is us
I bring her home and let her on the table and I run to get the first aid kit
For the first time I am praying
I'm crying
I'm sad
I'm worried
And I feel guilty
Guilty for not being good enough
I then take and put ur in bed and for the first time
I sit there and pray to god that she would be ok I am sorry god I say and I'm sorry for being such an disappointment
Forgive me