Faded (afi)

2.3

" Hey." Ashton says to me with a towel wrapped around his waist.

" Oh hey." I turn my head, to see his toned stomach.

" Your staring at me Becca."

" Yeah because your fucking ripped."

Ashton raises his eyebrows.

"So I was thinking, and maybe we should start picking out baby names?"
He changes the subject.

"I don't know. I don't really want to know what gender or anything it is because I want a surprise. you know we'll know at birth?"
"Yeah that makes sense." he looks unsure. like he disagrees.

••••••••

After Ashton and I are in our clothes for the day, we are ready to leave.

We walk to his car and open the doors.

I sit on his black Leather seats, and turn on the stereo.

What's my age again - Blink 182

We arrive. I feel like I might puke.

Ashton takes the keys out if ignition and looks at me.

" Hey, it's going to be okay." He tucks my hair behind my ear, and kisses my cheek.

"I had a dream last night Ashton."

"Yeah. So did I."

"This wasn't any dream."

I go on and tell him my dream about the terrible ultrasound I had, and thats why I was crying.

"Wow." Ashton says amazed.

"Thats why I was so upset this morning. I didn't want my dream to become a reality."

"Thats terrible Becca."

"I know." A tear rolls down my cheek.

He leans over the seat, and gives me a hug.

"I'm sure everything will be just fine."

I don't comment, and the silence reminds Ashton that we need to be going in before we are late for our appointment.

He gets out of his seat, and closes the door. He walks over to my side of the car and opens the door for me. I step out.

We join hands as we walk to the building, and I hold my empty hand on my belly. What will the doctor tell us?

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We walk into the office.

"Hello I'm Julie. how may I help you?" The front desk lady asks.

"Ultrasound." Ashton says and points to my stomach.

"Alright. here's some paperwork we need you to fill out, then you can head back."

"Okay thank you." I say.

We sit down and fill out the paperwork.

We finish and return the clipboard to the lady at the desk.
"Okay, head on back." she nods.

We walk into the bare doctors office. Grey and depressing.

"Hello. My name is Peter and I'll be the doctor."
"Okay."
"Have a seat right her Ashton." he gestures to a chair.
"And Mommy can sit on the bed. pull your shirt up please."
I do so. everything happens pretty much like I dreamed it after that.

"Oh. yikes."
"What?" Is he going to tell me what I think?
"You see..." He goes on. telling me everything.
"And Becca -"